Thanks for all the support ladies. H & I spent the day on the phone. There was yelling, screaming, and crying from both of us. Then we ended up with exhausted talking. He even said he thought our marriage was great before K came along, we had some really rough patches since but he thought it was getting better. One of our main problems is his inability to actually hear what I say to him so any problems I talk to him about go in one ear and out the other.
We're going to do even more talking tonight. He doesn't want me to leave and he wants the marriage we had back (obviously, we have K now, but I know what he means). I'm going to insist on counseling. We've just reached the point that we're really not communicating well for more than short periods anymore.
I'm actually already on meds for PPD but H thinks they aren't enough (he thinks he knows better than the dr). H has an issue where he thinks meds are a cure-all. I've been trying for a long time to make him understand that they aren't wonder drugs but he hasn't gotten it yet. And yes, money is really tight right now and I do believe he is resentful. It's just one of many problems at this point.
I don't know where we'll go from here. Hopefully things will get better.
Thank you again for all the support and letting me vent. Cookies for all.