I buried my child.
I don't know if many other people do that, especially when you miscarry in the first trimester. But a close friend of mine miscarried a few years ago, and she told me that's the one thing she regretted -- not burying her baby.
I named my baby, Toviel Rain, and we buried him with a pair of newborn socks I had bought for his birth in a garden urn. I plan on planting chrysanthemums in the garden urn in the spring.
Am I the only one who has done this? Does this mean I was TOO attached to my unborn baby?
Re: Am I the only one? (VERY sensitive mc topic)
I think it's beautiful. I don't feel compelled to do so, but I think it's really very neat. I think it's mostly because we rent and therefore it feels odd to bury a baby here, but I do want to plant a tree one day. I don't think there's any such thing as "too attached"
Curious, though - how did you decide on boy? I am convinced we lost a girl, as sure as sure can be. Of course I can never really know, but I am literally positive. Is mother's intuition that strong I wonder?
Ah. Well, you may think I'm strange. But I'm a Christian and very spiritualistic. I rely on intuition and faith much more than logic and science. That's how I've been since I was a small child. A bit of a hippie Christian, I guess.
And... I just knew. I knew from the moment I learned I was pregnant. And my partner felt he knew too. And after I lost my baby, I felt that God told me in a dream that my son was safe in heaven now. So, I have no scientific proof. But the leanings of my heart tell me he was a boy.
I think it is very beautiful. I had a d&c and the thought never even occurred to me, nor would they probably even have given me the remains since it is considered "bio haz", but I can see the benefit of burying as it does provide some closure.
I totally felt girl from the moment I found out, I am still thinking about a name, but hope to have one for her soon. And BTW, I don't think you are "too attached", I just think everyone deals with things differently, and unfortunately don't know how we will feel until it happens.
We buried our baby. Being able to do this was one of the main reasons I chose to m/c naturally at home.
We buried our baby (who I think was a girl) at a large nature park that has some personal significance for us.
We didn't bury her at our house because we don't think that we will always live in our current home and we wanted to be able to visit her when we wanted.
I think your idea is beautiful to use a movable urn and to plant flowers in it. It is the perfect way for you to memorialize your baby.
You know, sometimes we don't need science. It's odd (and I just shared this with my husband last night), but we always had our girl's name. Always. It was to be used for our first girl. So, we had settled on that and had 0 boys names. But this entire pregnancy I just could not visualize that girl's name here on Earth with my son. All of a sudden, it just didn't feel or sound right. But I was scared to speak up and say "actually, no, let's not use that name I've planned to use since I was a little girl" - but I think it was because in my heart I knew that baby was meant for heaven. I think sometimes our subconscious / spiritual side is way better than we give it credit for.
BFP #1 - 8/28/11 -- MMC at 11w2d - Discovered at 13w5d on 11/7/11 -- D&C on 11/11/11
BFP #2 2/3/12 - EDD 10/15/12 - Born 10/16/12 ~*~Everyone Welcome ~*~
I felt the same way.
I think each one of us has our own way of getting some sort of closure. I think it is beautiful that you named and buried your baby since that is what you needed to do. I don't think you were TOO attached by any means. <<HUGS>> to you.
My husband and I named our baby but I had a D&C so I didn't have the opprotunity to bury our baby and for me, I am okay with that.
BFP#1 8/24/11, EDD 5/5/12, D&C 10/24/11 due to missed m/c
BFP #2 2/1/12, EDD 10/11/12. Baby arrived 10/9/12
BFP #3 5/6/14, EDD 1/14/15
My DH burried ours in our backyard, I'm thinking of putting a cross ornament on top of it, I'm not sure it is our little shrimp that he burried but he was certain that he sees arms and legs and we also burried the sac together. Everything is a blur for me but I'm glad DH did it, I still cant see the burried place yet since its too hard for me. Hopefully I can get over it and kneel down to it and pray for her/him.
I too before I know I was having BFP. I have a dream that I'm holding a little girl and some strange old guy voice told me its my baby. A week later I took HPT and I was positive. A week before my natural m/c I had the same dream that telling me I dont have my baby anymore the same voice and same tone. Woke up and I was in denial, I rub my belly and tell it to stick with me. I had my bleeding a week after that.
I dont think its strange at all, I think its a mother's instinct and sometime I think (it may sound crazy) its God talking to me. Not sure....
BFP#1 10 wk missed mc
BFP#2 DS born at 40+2 on 8/14/12 BFP#3 DD Born at 39+3 on 5/13/14
i had one natural miscarriage and a D&C , the from natural miscarriage i felt i could not flush my baby down , so i retrieved him , named him angel , i still have him at home cause we are almost moving to our new home and i'm planning on burying him in our garden and plant a tree
still have those depressive days................
[spoiler] My Blog: Grow Baby Grow
BFP #1: 12/2009 m/c 1/2010 BFP #2: 6/2010 m/c 8/2010
BFP #3: 10/2011 ectopic 11/2011 (right tube removed, learned left tube was probably nonfunctional due to scar tissue from infection after m/c)
3 failed IUIs, IVF #1: 18R, 12M, 10F, 3 poor quality 5d embryos transferred= BFP #4!!!!!
Betas: 9dp5dt: 64 ~14dp5dt: 91 (expecting miscarriage, doubling time of 236 hours) ~16dp5dt: 200~18dp5dt: 500
First Ultrasound at 6w2d revealed two sacs, only one with a heartbeat
LK arrived after 42 weeks on August 14, 2013! Beautiful, healthy, and happy!
TTC#2: IVF booked for April 2015
Surprise BFP#5 February 19, 2015 EDD: November 2, 2015
Betas: 10dpo: 10, 14dpo: 77, 17dpo: 270
First Ultrasound at 5w1d showed a miracle UTE baby! And right ovary ovulation to left fallopian tube.
JD arrived at 38 weeks on October 20, 2015.
TTC #3: Since October 2017. BFP #6 July 2, 2018 EDD: March 16, 2019 [/spoiler]
I think it is about 50% of the time.
I was certain I lost a girl with my first so we named her Hannah Elizabeth. I was 100% absolutely, positively certain. But we didn't have testing so I don't know. But I decided that in Heaven, kids don't get teased for their names so if I really had a boy it would be okay until I got to Heaven too to change it for him.
With our second I was again convinced we had a boy. This time testing showed us that our intuition was wrong and that we had another girl. We named her Audrey Elise.
With our third, I never had any gut feeling. DH really thought boy. But we picked the unisex name Sam.
[spoiler] My Blog: Grow Baby Grow
BFP #1: 12/2009 m/c 1/2010 BFP #2: 6/2010 m/c 8/2010
BFP #3: 10/2011 ectopic 11/2011 (right tube removed, learned left tube was probably nonfunctional due to scar tissue from infection after m/c)
3 failed IUIs, IVF #1: 18R, 12M, 10F, 3 poor quality 5d embryos transferred= BFP #4!!!!!
Betas: 9dp5dt: 64 ~14dp5dt: 91 (expecting miscarriage, doubling time of 236 hours) ~16dp5dt: 200~18dp5dt: 500
First Ultrasound at 6w2d revealed two sacs, only one with a heartbeat
LK arrived after 42 weeks on August 14, 2013! Beautiful, healthy, and happy!
TTC#2: IVF booked for April 2015
Surprise BFP#5 February 19, 2015 EDD: November 2, 2015
Betas: 10dpo: 10, 14dpo: 77, 17dpo: 270
First Ultrasound at 5w1d showed a miracle UTE baby! And right ovary ovulation to left fallopian tube.
JD arrived at 38 weeks on October 20, 2015.
TTC #3: Since October 2017. BFP #6 July 2, 2018 EDD: March 16, 2019 [/spoiler]