The first two weeks after Sylvie died I could barely eat. My husband had to almost force me to eat. Finally after her service I started to get back my appetite and I swear since then I haven't been able to stop eating sweets. With the exception of today I haven't eaten too much "regular food", which typically is healthy, but have been going to town on sweets. I made peanut butter blossom cookies yesterday and I think I've eaten about a dozen so far today. I had to get into bed so I wouldn't eat any more!
It just feels like another part of my life that is out of control. The only part of my life that seems to be in control is exercising. I've been exercising almost every day for the past two weeks and with all this exercising the scale hasn't budged. Tonight during pilates class I almost burst into tears because I'm not as physically strong as I used to be pre-pregnancy.
Maybe it is PMS. Or just parts of my life spiraling out of control.
Re: Emotional eating
Wow, this seriously was me. I was GAINING weight because I was eating so much JUNK! After Kyndal died, that's all I wanted, so i baked, and I ate, and I baked, and I ate some more. I gained 6 lbs in about 3 weeks. I was stress eating. It made me feel better to constantly eat! I MADE myself refocus that to dieting and exercising. I have never been the type to work out, but I have been making myself and I have been eating a lot better. I haven't had a sweet in over 2 weeks, and I am bound and determined to not. It's actually making me feel better to eat good and work out. I'm logging my food. I don't know if that helps anyone, but I had to do this, I can't stand the feeling of being over weight, and I want to get back down before I get pregnant again.
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I was like this the first month or so after Adria died-I wanted to eat,constantly,specifically go out to eat-it felt like an escape,from our house where I wish there had been 3 of us instead of just the two of us.We spent so much money in that first month on eating out,and eventually take out when I was more comfortable being home.
T1 diabetes diagnosed 11/95 due to severe pancreatic injury
BFP 1 1/22/10 EDD 9/30/10 Adria b. 9/11/10 d.8/9/11, Transposition of the Great Arteries,
Pleural effusion, Kidney Failure
BFP 2 4/26/12 EDD 1/3/13 M/C 5/13/12
BFP 3 10/3/12 EDD 6/17/13 Twins! Preston and Juliet b. 5/22/13
I've been doing this after my m/c
Today I had an irritating visit with my new MFM about my history and I went straight for the T-day leftovers when I got home and followed it with Chipotle for dinner. *oink oink*
I am confirming my WW sign-up in the morning. I need to get back on track!
? to Loss+M/PL+TTCAL+PgAL+PAL
PgAL/PAL welcome
I totally feel the same. I, however, need to lose some weight as I'm overweight, not sure if it's like that for you. I was never very physically active either really.
My doctor wanted me to just walk for 6 weeks, then I can join Curves, or whatever.
I definitely feel like just baking and eating whatever the hell I want. Adjusting to post-pregnancy eating and drinking was a shock in itself for me, especially with twins. Though I was overweight, I had ketones and needed to gain gain GAIN! It was crazy.
We joined Weight Watchers two weeks after, more for DH though as he had gained weight while I was preggo, too, and we did it before and he was successful. I really don't care, but it is making me more aware and DH lost 4 lbs. and I was up .2 which wasn't bad I think! :P I'm supporting him and I think in time I'll care more and maybe lose weight!![:) :)](https://forums.thebump.com/resources/emoji/smile.png)
I don't have too much advice, but maybe tracking your food will help you have some semblance of control. It's great you at least are active and have that under control! Good luck! *hugs*
I've struggled off & on with emotional eating too...I did lose all my pregnancy weight within about five months because I was so motivated to get pregnant again. However, I should lose at least 20 lbs on top of that and I have not. I am loosely doing weight watchers but it is such a hard time of year...besides Christmas etc I've also got my son's birthday and death anniversary coming up and fatty carbs just make it feel better for some reason. Blehh.
The one thing that is really motivating for me is that I notice a very strong connection between my eating/exercise habits and mood. Days that I eat junk or don't exercise I am MUCH more likely to fall into funk/depressive mood/hopeless feelings etc late in the day. I have noticed that if I am really good with healthy eating, exercise, vitamins and enough sleep it is much easier emotionally to get through the day. Though the eating feelings helps in the very short term, being healthy makes me feel better in the longer term, if that makes sense. I just have to try to remember that when temptation strikes.