I haven't been able to be on the bump in what feels like ages. Logan's sleep (or lack of) has made for one very exhausted mommy. Naps are no better so I find that I have very little time for myself these days. I feel like I'm almost in survival mode like when he was a NB.
We are doing everything within our power to avoid CIO so right now we're working with a sleep coach to work on his sleep crutches. It'll be a week tomorrow and so far he's already made some (slow) progress. He no longer needs the swing to move, or music when he's asleep. We've cut out his first night feeding at 9:30 and have begun the transition into his crib. The past two nights he's managed to fall asleep there and have his first stretch of sleep there. Once we can get him to sleep all night in his crib we'll begin to address his sleep/suck association and try to get him on some sort of schedule during the day as well (we still feed on demand). Right now it's looking like his sleep cycles are abour 45 minutes long, which means that's how often he wakes up at night to comfort nurse. It's been like this pretty consistently since he was about 5 1/2 months old. Fun times.
I really hope we both start to get more sleep soon and I can start feeling more like myself again. I'm not a fan of this irritable, cranky person I've become. I've also started feeling bitter about sleep--like when I hear people complain about waking up once or twice a night, or when everyone around me brags about what a great sleeper they have and how their kid has STTN since x weeks old. My SIL is pregnant right now and I even found myself wishing that this next baby is a horrible sleeper That's honestly not like me at all and I really don't mean it. I guess it's just that whole misery loves company thing.