My cousin and I were due a week apart. I knew about her pregnancy, she didn't know about mine. I was super excited to get to share pregnancy stuff with her, and raise our kids together - not together, but going through the same things around the same times etc. Now it just sucks. I don't want to see her pregnant belly grow for the next 9 months, thinking how I should be just as pregnant as she is. I don't want to see her baby, who will be born when mine should have been... I don't know how I'm going to handle it all.
I'm thinking of writing her a letter to let her know what happened, so that she can maybe understand why I might not seem super excited for her. I am excited for her, but its just hard for me. The only thing is I don't want her to know and then feel guilty about her happy healthy pregnancy. Noone should feel guilty about that. I'm not sure if telling her will make things better or worse.
What would you do?