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emerlea

Hi, ladies.  I'm so happy to have found this board, despite the circumstances.  At the end of August, I got my first BFP and was overyjoyed.  I began experiencing terrible cramps and bleeding.  Because I had tested myself early, my doctor told me that I had had a chemical pregnancy.  After that, I made a deal with myself to wait more than just two weeks before taking another pregnancy test.  Had I not tested early, I probably wouldn't have been any the wiser and saved myself a lot of heartache.

I didn't get another period, and finally cracked and tested myself about 25 DPO and got another BFP.  I couldn't believe that I got pregnant again and so quickly, but made a conscious decision to be more guarded in how excited I was.  My doctor had me in right away for a check at 5 weeks and then scheduled me for my first ultrasound at 7 weeks.  On Tuesday, DH and I went in for the u/s and right away the nurse said there was nothing there and doc confirmed that this pregnancy was a blighted ovum.  He recommended waiting a week to see if I miscarry the pregnancy naturally.  If I don't, we're going to discuss a D&C or a prescription for Cytotec.

I'm so sorry for the losses you've experienced and I hope to find - and be - support in this journey until we all get our sticky, take home babies.

xo

HopingforChange

I am so sorry you are experiencing this miscarriage, esp. right on the heels of the chemical pregnancy.  What a hard few months.  Thoughts and prayers are with you, and I hope you find this board as helpful as I have.  The women on here are truly lovely.  Again, I am so sorry for your loss, and I hope you are able to resolve the physical part of the miscarriage soon.

hopeful16

i'm very sorry you are going through this. I'm glad you found this board & hope it brings you comfort. ((hugs))

candr09

I'm very sorry for your loss. I hope you find some comfort here. 

chop2428

So sorry for your loss. I had a blighted ovum too, and looking at that empty sac was terrible. T&P for you.

Wookie18

I am so sorry for your loss. This board is really an amazing support. I will be keeping you in my thoughts. ((hugs))

VineyardMel

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Nobody should have to go through this--let alone more than once. T&P for you and YH as you deal with this. I hope it happens quickly for you.

mijakach

I'm so sorry you have to go through this - especially having one right after the other. I've found this board to be very supportive and I hope you do too.

LivingItUpInUP

I am so sorry for your losses.  Even though it's unfortunate so many lovely women are here, it's so nice to have this support system, and I hope it helps you as it has helped me this past week.  I also have a blighted ovum, and I didn't start spotting until 8 weeks 6 days.  I've been spotting/very light bleeding since then, so I think there's still much more to come, but I'm glad I don't have to agonize over whether to wait or get the D&C.  A lot of women who have gotten the D&C are really happy with their decision so that they can move on physically faster.  I guess I'm still technically waiting to miscarry naturally.  I just wanted to give you some more information to help you with your decision.  I'm so sorry you have to make one.

emerlea

Thank you all for making me feel so welcome and much less alone.  I'm going back to the doctor on the 1st to discuss the Cytotec/D&C.  My body keeps telling me that I'm not going to miscarry naturally by then.  I'm not bleeding, not cramping, and I still have m/s and other pregnancy symptoms.  The more I read other posts, the more I'm leaning toward the D&C.  I can really see, like LivingItUpInUP said, that it's brought a lot of closure to members of the boards.

I am feeling guilty, but I keep having these thoughts of just wanting the miscarriage to happen already.  How morbid is that?