Baby Number Two

UGAbride

This has probably been posted before, but I saved it from when I was pregnant with Ethan. 

 

Baby Number Two

I walk along holding your almost 2-year-old hand, basking in the glow of our magical relationship. Suddenly I feel a kick from within, as if to remind me that our time alone is limited. And I wonder: How could I ever love another child as I love you? Then he is born, and I watch you. I watch the pain you feel at having to share me as you've never shared me before. I hear you telling me in your own way, "Please love only me." And I hear myself telling you in mine, "I can't," Knowing in fact, that I never can again. You cry. I cry with you. I almost see our new baby as an intruder on the precious relationship we once shared. A relationship we can never quite have again.

But then, barely noticing, I find myself attached to that new being, and feeling almost guilty. I'm afraid to let you see me enjoying him-- as though I am betraying you. But then I notice your resentment change, first to curiosity, then to protectiveness, finally to genuine affection. More days pass, and we are setting into a new routine. The memory of days with just the two of us is fading fast. But something else is replacing those wonderful times we shared, just us two. There are new times -- only now, we are three.

I watch the look between you grow, the way you look at each other, touch each other. I watch how he adores you -- as I have for so long. I see how excited you are by each of his new accomplishments. And I begin to realize that I haven't taken something from you, I've given something to you. I notice that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you. I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong. And my question is finally answered, to my amazement. Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you -- only differently. And although I realize that you may have to share my time, I now know you'll never share my love. There's enough of that for both of you -- you each have your own supply. I love you -- both. And I thank you both for blessing my life.

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MrsL1022

Well my hormones have arrived b/c I had a hormotional reaction to that :-) It's really sweet and totally got me teary. I have felt a little guilty thinking about how our lives will change in June. Colin has been the center of our world for 3 years a month shy of 4 when the new baby arrives. I know it will be ok in the end though. 

dleigh2020

Very sweet. It made me cry. It is amazing that you can love two equally. I was pretty sure it was impossible until Ethan was born last week.

californiafrog7905

MrsL1022:

Well my hormones have arrived b/c I had a hormotional reaction to that :-) It's really sweet and totally got me teary. I have felt a little guilty thinking about how our lives will change in June. Colin has been the center of our world for 3 years a month shy of 4 when the new baby arrives. I know it will be ok in the end though. 

 

Yeah. Ditto that; go ahead and make me cry this early in the morning, why don't ya.   Thanks for posting; that was really sweet!

Daisy22

Heck I'm not pg and I'm bawling. It's all so true. I had so much guilt when I was pg with Bryce especially with Bailey being so young. But now I see them play together and Bailey telling Bryce it's okay when he's crying. I love them both so much

MrsKLB

I have this saved from a while back when someone posted, too.  Makes me cry every time I read it.  

DzsGirl

I remember reading/bawling to this when I was pg with Reid...it is amazing how true it is.

MrsNaples06

I just welled up reading this too.  It's crazy to think you can love #2 as much as #1.  In the end I think it will be the best for both and having a sibling is a wonderful gift even if you can't see it while growing up! 

seansgirl2006

That made me tear up too.  When I was pregnant the first time I couldn't imagine the love everyone described I would have for my first.  Now I can't imagine how it will be with another but I look forward to the experience.  Thanks for sharing that, very cool.

decaturbride

This totally makes me cry!