This month, I'm really starting to feel hopeless when it comes to TTC. We've been BDing without protection since March 2010. And with increased BD since October 2010. (I know some have been trying longer.) My BFF just got her BFP after maybe one month off BC. (I know her fertility has nothing to do with mine.) Every new BFP post on TB makes me a little sad (selfishly, yes). We're already out this month because DH is traveling and won't be home until Friday. FF is predicting Saturday. But it was predicting Friday before AF ended. And, of course, our bodies don't care what FF says anyway... So, it could be Friday or Saturday... or some other day. Although, my two months of temping have shown ovulation to be on the same day for those two months. SA results aren't in yet. I've decided to only temp this month... no OPKs, CM, or CP tracking... and I've been trying to focus on DH and BDing without worrying about TTC. But more and more, I feel like God (if you believe in Him) is punishing me - and, thus, I won't have a kid until I do "xyz". (If you believe in Him, fine. If you don't, fine. I'm not interested in starting or participating in a religious debate...) And I just feel hopeless... and like it is never going to happen. Maybe I need a TTC break too. /end vent.. Flame away.
Me: 32, DH: 45... TTC #1 since May 2010
July - Nov 2011: Testing with OB... OB said everything looks good
March - Sept 2012: Moved to RE.. 4 treatment cycles - responses of one or no follicles
09.03.12: Diagnosed Poor Ovarian Response.. DE IVF only option
Feb - Nov 2012: Pursued Adoption. That door slammed shut.
12.23.12: Surprise BFP (first ever)... 12.25 - 12.31: Natural M/C
Re: Hopeless Vent
I agree with this and would like to add that whatever difficulties we go through in life, it is better to think of them as opportunities to grow rather than punishment. Maybe you are learning patience or endurance or long-suffering.... whatever you get out of your life ordeals, make it positive. It's easier said than done, but you have to or else you're going to drive yourself crazy.
Darling Little Sydney born 12.22.12
Two Babies in Heaven
My Babe, More Precious is to Me
~A ridiculous amount of love to all my Golden Girls!~
Great thoughts from all three of you. It's certainly easier said than done. But I'm going to work on changing that thought process. Because, you're right, it's not a good road to go down... It keeps my eyes focused on the past instead of the present and future.
July - Nov 2011: Testing with OB... OB said everything looks good
March - Sept 2012: Moved to RE.. 4 treatment cycles - responses of one or no follicles
09.03.12: Diagnosed Poor Ovarian Response.. DE IVF only option
Feb - Nov 2012: Pursued Adoption. That door slammed shut.
12.23.12: Surprise BFP (first ever)... 12.25 - 12.31: Natural M/C
*fingers crossed*
July - Nov 2011: Testing with OB... OB said everything looks good
March - Sept 2012: Moved to RE.. 4 treatment cycles - responses of one or no follicles
09.03.12: Diagnosed Poor Ovarian Response.. DE IVF only option
Feb - Nov 2012: Pursued Adoption. That door slammed shut.
12.23.12: Surprise BFP (first ever)... 12.25 - 12.31: Natural M/C