Video of my son's birth

Crystal318

I knew that when my son was born, he wasnt breathing and I knew it was for a long period of time. I had him via emergency c-section and by the time they got him out, I was passed out so I never saw what was happening.

My FI was videoing the whole thing (even though we really werent supposed to).

 Anyways, It was about a 7 - 8 minute video which started from the moment they took LO out of me and laid him in the little baby bed. I watched it when LO was about five weeks old and I just couldnt get through it.

For some stupid reason, I watched it again last night...the whole thing.  OMG I was in shock or something - numb almost. They laid him in the little baby bed and worked on him for that entire time (7-8 mins). He was not moving, He was not breathing. After about five minutes (which is where I stopped the first time) one of the doctors took her Stethascope off and laid it on the table - she was done trying. Another doctor came over there and turned the warmer off - she was done trying. There was one more doctor who kept pumping him with oxygen and suctioning the meconium out of his lungs over and over again for seven minutes straight.

 I just cant believe that if that one doctor would have gave up as soon as the other two did...my son would not be here. It is so hard to even think about that - and I just watched it on video??  Good thing it still seems like an out of body experience for me. I dont even believe that was my son on that table.

It made me wonder how long do doctors usually work on babies at birth before actually giving up? Does it just depend? I dont know, but I just want to meet that guy in the video who saved my sons life....I just want to tackle him with hugs and kisses and thank him until I cant thank him anymore!!!!!!!!!

Just thought I would share.

 Thanks!

hollerjeepgirl

I'm emotional for you, that has to be tough. I can't imagine watching it. I had a hard time watching the video my dad took when he went up to the NICU to see my son. I was upset I couldn't be there with him but so grateful he was alive and crying. I'm tearing up reading your story!

njdcgirl

Wow.  I can't imagine getting through watching that.

But, I do relate to the amazing feeling of gratitude and love towards the doctor who saved your child's life.  The neonatologist who was on the night my son was born will always be a hero to me.  To answer your question as to how long they will work on somone - I just don't know.  Doctors must have some instinct that tells them to keep going.  So glad you got that doctor that day.

**wishing I was home from work right now so I could go hug my son extra tight.**

OscarQ

Wow!  That is intense.  I hope that you find that doctor. 

I feel a special bond with the neo who was in the OR when my son was born.  I found out later that she and I used the same RE to get pregnant and she had just gotten her BFP the week my son was born.  Which means she should be having her baby any day now.  Off to email my fave NICU nurse for an update.

Cara03

Wow. I am super emotional and having a lack of words to express the pain I feel for you. I had never thought of a birth video before but right now I'm sitting here thankful that there isn't one of my son's birth, thinking that the less I know, the better for me. If there were a video, I'm sure I'd want to see it when I could handle it.

I agree with PP about relating to the doctors heroic nature. The neo on the night my son was born was just remarkable. One of the nurses, in particular, went above and beyond for me that night as well, and they will always be extremely special people to me.

katie4253

Wow, I don't think I could watch that.  That is rough!  I'm glad that doctor didn't give up!!!

Mrs. Alice

Oh my goodness.  Your story just gave me chills.  Maybe you can find out who the Dr. was through his medical record?  

Even though I didn't have as a dramatic delivery, I still get all teary when I think about their birthday and how scared I was for them and what could have been.  Things like this make you appreciate what a miracle they really are.

urbanflowerpot

I read your post earlier this evening but didn't know what to say and it's been bothering me all night; I can't imagine how you must feel. I shared it with DH and we both AW'ed your siggy picture - he's so handsome! I told him that if I had that video he's have to lock it up. I don't think I could delete it, but I think I'd watch it over and over. They gave me copies of DS discharge summaries from both of our stays in NICU and I read them every couple of weeks. It's just so...like watching a car wreck, I guess. Except I am the wreck.

DH and I praise God for that one doctor...

Please be careful with that video. I've been on these boards long enough to know that PTSD runs amok...and I'll be keeping you in my T&P. I've never seen a subject line like this one & I hope to never again. Heart-wrenching </3

Natalie_may

I don't know what to say but big internet hugs to you.  (((hugs)))

Crystal318

You guys are all really sweet!

I know we have all been through a lot with our LO's. Even though our labor/delivery/NICU stays/etc can be completely different, we are definintely connected by the fact that we all know what it feels like to have had a baby who may or may not make it - one of the worst feelings I could even imagine ever experiencing in my life!

 Thanks for taking the time to read my story and thanks for you comments, prayers etc!

 I am pretty sure I will be tucking that video away for a while........OMG and I will NEVER let my mother watch it.....she is a million times worse than me - I would have to have her committed!!!! 

SineCera

That would be such a difficult thing to watch.  I teared up a little after reading that, I can imagine how YOU feel.  I would go to the hospital website where I'm sure they have his name somewhere where they list doctors, and possibly a picture.