Ugh. I am having the worst time today. It's like...I think I'm okay and then the enormity of two failed cycles comes crashing down again and I feel like there's a brick wall on my chest. I get myself so worked up that I can't even breathe. Today is my cousin's engagement party and I know I have to go. It's important. but right now, I can't even find the energy or ambition to get off the couch. That's all I seem to be doing these days when I'm not working or going to the gym or cleaning the house. I just lay on the couch. It doesn't help that AF was AWFUL after this failed cycle. She went away and then came back yesterday and here I am bleeding again. Like, SERIOUSLY?! I'm going to need a transfusion for god's sake. (sorry for the TMI.) I have been having horrible headaches too and I have no idea where they are coming from. Maybe a Skinnygirl margarita will help?
Re: Stuck in a depressed rut - apologies for the rant.
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OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
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My thoughts exactly. I am sorry you are having a rough time. Rant all you want; that's what we're here for. ((hugs))
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