Strangely, I feel really good today, emotionally and physically. I really needed this nightmare to be over so I could start down the path of true healing. I can't believe how liberated I feel now. My betas are dropping really fast so they have just decided to keep an eye on them instead of doing the lap. They don't think the ectopic is actually in my left tube (but aren't 100% sure), and since I am not in any pain from it and never have been we are keeping our fingers crossed that my betas continue to tank and my body absorbs it.
I know I will still have my moments, but this is the best I have felt since we found out there was no hb and I am embracing it.