Having one of THOSE nights.. (AW/vent)

MamaCat21

One of those-

What the hell am I going to do?

How am I going to be a mother to TWO when I don't even know how to be a mother to one?

It's stressful enough with all the appointments, doctors finding something new to worry about every appointment.. How are MH and I going to handle the stress of them being here?

How did I get myself into this?

-Kinda nights.

 

This is a planned pregnancy, but does anybody really ever plan for more than one before it happens? I'm so in love with my girls already, and so excited that I'm blessed with one, let alone two, but at this current moment I just dread how fast these months are flying by. It doesn't help that my hormones make it a lot easier to get pissed at DH, to the point of where he's working more by choice (he's military, so overtime doesn't get him more money), which ends up pissing me off more.

My whole family and nearly all of my friends are over 2000 miles away (I'll be moving back in a month or so thank goodness), and I swear I feel like all I have to talk to is my cats, and they aren't much for conversation.

I'm not looking for pity, or even responses, I just don't know where else to say this that won't cause people I know IRL  to be completely up my bum about it. I just feel like crying and eating ice cream. We don't have any ice cream. Damn it.

 

Leigh71

I had those nights.  And I looked at the double PNP my sister and DH built in our master bedroom and thought..."uh, no....do not put that thing in this room!  I'm not ready yet."

My DS1 has special needs.  So he is a whole other post.... but there were days I almost had a "oh crap, what am I going to do" moments, worried @ how I would care for 3.  I couldn't share my feelings w/family or friends IRL, because they wouldn't understand.  That's why I love this board.  Lots of support here.  The second I gave birth to those to beautiful babies (I couldn't see~ because they whisked them off to NICU~I was in love and would do anything in this world for them). 

((hugs))

MamaCat21

Leigh71:

I had those nights.  And I looked at the double PNP my sister and DH built in our master bedroom and thought..."uh, no....do not put that thing in this room!  I'm not ready yet."

My DS1 has special needs.  So he is a whole other post.... but there were days I almost had a "oh crap, what am I going to do" moments, worried @ how I would care for 3.  I couldn't share my feelings w/family or friends IRL, because they wouldn't understand.  That's why I love this board.  Lots of support here.  The second I gave birth to those to beautiful babies (I couldn't see~ because they whisked them off to NICU~I was in love and would do anything in this world for them). 

((hugs))

Thanks mama. I really needed that. It's amazing how internet strangers can make you feel better than the people you know IRL.

pea-kay

We should write out something like "the five stages of multiples pregnancy" because what you're feeling is perfectly normal. You'll do great!

MamaCat21

pea-kay:

We should write out something like "the five stages of multiples pregnancy" because what you're feeling is perfectly normal. You'll do great!

Haha yea... I'm surprised there isn't a book or something like that already. I know I'm not the first or the last to feel this way. Thanks pea-kay.