2ww- the worst! *****UPDATED*****

jamielynnohio

MAYBE TMI... CAUTION... Today is 9dp3dt!

So, Saturday early evening I went to the restroom and had some goo- a yellowish brown spot, kinda thick like CM. But, only that one time. Made me sooo nervous.

Yesterday, about 4 o'clock- I went to the restroom and had a pinkish red smear! I was convinced AF was making her appearance. But I've had nothing since. NOTHING! I've been to the restroom like 5 times today to check. TORTURE!

I'm not a spotter typically. This is killin me. I either want her to show her ugly face and let me know this is over- or quit playin games with me!!!

Beta Friday! This is gonna be a very.long.week.  

(thanks for allowing me to vent) 

UPDATE: I just went to the restroom and had brown back again. I called my nurse they moved my beta to Wednesday, which will be 11dp3dt. She said if my # comes back low they'll make me do a repeat beta Friday. But they didn't wanna chance missing a chemical like the feel they did last time when I started bleeding before my beta.

I'm a nervous wreck!!!!!!!!!! 

orange1414

((hugs)) I'm right there with you. Last night I had a migraine (usually a pre-AF symptom for me) and I had a total break down. My beta is Thursday. **fingers crossed** for BFPs for both of us!

MBfromBMC

I hate how IF plays with our heads!  I hope the rest of the week flies til your beta!  GL!

jamielynnohio

orange1414:

((hugs)) I'm right there with you. Last night I had a migraine (usually a pre-AF symptom for me) and I had a total break down. My beta is Thursday. **fingers crossed** for BFPs for both of us! 

Agreed girl!!! I'm sorry you had a break down- it's just not fair is it? ((hugs))

Yesterday I came out of the restroom, looked at my hubs, and said... I had another spot... I'm so sorry babe. He told me to stop apologizing for something I couldn't control. He said it wasn't my fault- but I let him know that I feel like it is. I mean I'm the one "broken". He has a great attitude and is still holding out hope. So I am trying to feed off of his strength. 

Ugh-  IF sux. I just wanna know. I mean this beta defines the rest of my life. This.is.it. The pressure is almost unbearable. 

 

labbylover03

I hope Friday gets here pronto and with a nice surprise!!!  I hate how our bodies continually play games with us.   ((hugs))

DeputiesWife

It is torturous...

a very long week indeed!!! 

jessican08

Oh Jamie...I hope this is good news for you. I'm keeping you in my T&Ps.

vanessagorc

GL Jaime!  fingers crossed!!!!!!

jamielynnohio

Thnx loves!

M&MBride0506

Good luck Jaime!!!  I'm sorry that IF is messing with your head.   I have everything crossed for you!!!

mm29

I'm so sorry 2WW is playing mind tricks! I have my fingers crossed the spotting is implantation!!! GL this wk, sending you lots of ppvs

SweetDahlia

I hate the 2ww. UGH!! I am praying for you sweetie. I hope the week passes quickly!!

Faith722

I'm right behind you (7dp3dt today).  I think the 2nd week of the 2ww is so much worse.  That initial optimism is starting to fade and every little thing makes me wonder!  I hope the rest of the week flies by for us and we all get good news!!!!

3citygirl

Jamie - I'm right there with you!  My beta's tomorrow.  I went super crazy yesterday.  Crying.  Watching hours of Sister Wives.... I finally POAS after having just peed recently so it was super diluted urine... it was neg.  I know it doesn't mean a ton - but it made me feel horrible.  Now that I'm back at work I'm feeling so much better -- time is passing quickly.  Tomorrow I'll know.  Yeesh.  Scary.  I hope your week flies for you!  Thinking of you!!!

jamielynnohio

Faith722:

I'm right behind you (7dp3dt today).  I think the 2nd week of the 2ww is so much worse.  That initial optimism is starting to fade and every little thing makes me wonder!  I hope the rest of the week flies by for us and we all get good news!!!!

totally agree. I'm hoping for good news but my hope is fading... 

jamielynnohio

3citygirl:

Jamie - I'm right there with you!  My beta's tomorrow.  I went super crazy yesterday.  Crying.  Watching hours of Sister Wives.... I finally POAS after having just peed recently so it was super diluted urine... it was neg.  I know it doesn't mean a ton - but it made me feel horrible.  Now that I'm back at work I'm feeling so much better -- time is passing quickly.  Tomorrow I'll know.  Yeesh.  Scary.  I hope your week flies for you!  Thinking of you!!!

Duplicate. Sorry!

jamielynnohio

3citygirl:

Jamie - I'm right there with you!  My beta's tomorrow.  I went super crazy yesterday.  Crying.  Watching hours of Sister Wives.... I finally POAS after having just peed recently so it was super diluted urine... it was neg.  I know it doesn't mean a ton - but it made me feel horrible.  Now that I'm back at work I'm feeling so much better -- time is passing quickly.  Tomorrow I'll know.  Yeesh.  Scary.  I hope your week flies for you!  Thinking of you!!!

You're in my T&P's. Praying for a fantastic surprise beta!!! 

mdluv21

Good luck sweetie!!  I am glad they are getting you in earlier.  I am rooting so hard for you!

Faith722

I'm so glad they're getting you in sooner.  I'll be praying for you! <<<HUGS>>>

orange1414

I'm so glad they could move you up, jamie! Good luck!!! 

matt'sbride

(((big hugs))) I'm so sorry the 2ww/AF is being a total Biatch! Is it too early for you to POAS? Going to the bathroom a million times just to check is absolute torture, I'm so sorry! I wish I could make Wednesday come sooner!

jamielynnohio

matt'sbride:

(((big hugs))) I'm so sorry the 2ww/AF is being a total Biatch! Is it too early for you to POAS? Going to the bathroom a million times just to check is absolute torture, I'm so sorry! I wish I could make Wednesday come sooner!

Thanks girlie. They said to POAS before day 11 wouldn't guarantee accuracy. So according to them too early... I don't wanna chance stark white. I'm happy with moving it up 2 days early. Just gonna wait it out. But these wicked cramps are telling me my hopes and dreams are about to be crushed. 

Temp590840000005378

((HUGS)) Sorry you are freaking out,  I hope you get great news on Wednesday!!

M&MBride0506

Jaime, I'm praying for you!!!!  Keep us posted!!!

love2b_mrst

Thinking of you and hoping for good news this week.  Hope the spotting stops soon!

bbakersgirl75

I'm glad they moved your beta up to Wednesday. I'm just hoping that you were seeing some spotting relating to a PG and not to a chemical. Praying for you the next few days hun!! ((Hugs))

etoyama

Hoping with all my heart that this is your BFsP!!!!

amy1004

Oh Jamie, I wish we could make this easier for you.  I am glad that your beta got moved.

jillmatheny

Ugh. I'm so sorry for all the worry.  I hope that you have absolutely nothing more to worry about and you get a great surprise on Friday!!

Yolanbo9

I'm praying for a great Beta!!!! AF better STAY AWAY!!! GRRR!!!!! 

I can't imagine the mind games that come along with the 2ww

I'm glad you get to have your Beta on Wednesday!

{Huge Hugs}

Rachael07.07.07

(((hugs))) I hope everything works out foe you hun! Let this week go by super fast

jamielynnohio

Thank you all from the bottom of my heart. The thoughts, prayers, and hugs mean so very much!

When DH came home, and I had to tell him I had spotted again, I had a big meltdown. But, as usual, he picked me up and wiped the tears. He reminded me that we have to have faith until the very end. So thankful for such a strong encouraging hubby. And so thankful to have all my girls here to cheer me on and have hope when I can't find any.

I really appreciate you more than I can express! xoxo 

illinigal

Best of luck!! I'm routing for you.

psychmusetls

::hugs::  good luck sweetie.  I have everything crossed that good things are to come.

DeputiesWife

THINKING OF YOU! Praying everything is ok!!!!!

LCS040209

I'm hoping it is just implantation spotting...crossing my fingers for you!!!