Honestly I have so many questions I could write for 3 days and still not be done!
I am concerned about BFing and letting him sleep until he wakes on his own. I have been feeding him when he gives the cues or wakes up crying. I feel really guilty but I usually feed him and if he falls asleep I let him sleep until he wakes on his own. He has slept as long as 3 hours and 45 minutes. Is that bad? Should I be waking him up sooner to eat?
Today I found out that my baby is not gaining weight like he should. So, I have to supplement 1 oz of formula or expressed breast milk after each feeding until we go back to the lactation nurse on Friday. This is absolutely heart breaking for me because I feel like I have failed at every turn. I couldn't go into labor on my own, I gave in to the epi, and had to have a c-sec. I know none of this is my fault but I am pretty depressed about it all. All the nurses in the hospital were impressed with my quick recovery and how well I responded to the baby in the hospital but now that I am home I am sad and anxious instead of happy and content like the first few days.
Thanks for listening.