This weekend, a close friend of mine and his wife announced that they are pg and that she is due in November. She has the cutest little bump already and they are over the moon. I am truly happy for them. They are two of the most wonderful people I know.
But inside, a cloud over my joy for them was this feeling of jealousy and fear. We didn't tell them about the m/c back in November b/c she is a hypochondriac and she would drive him crazy with her worry. All I could think of is if we m/c again, how will I watch their glorious stress free pregnancy? Why does it seem like everyone else gets pregnant so easliy and we've had to work so hard at it? Why can't I be smiley and glowing rather than anxious and worried?
I knew this announcement was coming soon b/c she had told me they would start trying in the new year. I'm happy things are going well for them, truly. But I thought if I were pregnant the jealousy I felt for others when I was TTCAL would go away. Does anyone else feel this way?
BFP #1 9-22-10 Missed M/c 10-18-10 D&E 10-28-10
BFP #2 5-9-11 EDD 1-12-12 Audrey Rachel born 1-12-12
BFP #3 9-21-13 EDD 5-30-14