We found out through FACEBOOK that my SIL is having a girl....As if the world cares. And no, they didn't call to tell us the news. This is their third child. I went through the "they have two perfect children already and I have none, now this" phase...And I really have been struggling with it since she got pregnant right after my 1st m/c and now, right after my second, I have to go through the boy/girl excitement. But surprisingly I feel okay today...Even after DH told me yesterday afternoon I felt okay...It was weird because I assumed I would fall out in the floor crying, or break something, but I didn't.... I guess I wanted to tell you all this to show just how much I've improved over the last few weeks. IT DOES GET BETTER. I'm sure if you ask DH he would tell you that even last week I wanted nothing to do with their family. I was in so much pain, the thought of seeing their excitement KILLED me! But here I am today feeling...okay. Now, tomorrow may be a different story. I hope we all find peace and comfort soon...and one day I hope we all have our own excitement.