Does anyone else get tired of getting excited over every part of a cycle?

Sept07b2b

I have PCOS and don't ovulate on my own, so I never got a chance to be blissfully ignorant to all IF issues.  I imagine it would be nice to just get a period, have sex a bunch of times throughout the month and then take a HPT if my period were late!  Instead, we are stuck with holding our breath and hoping the each step of a cycle actually works (ie is normal) and getting super excited when it does (instead of just excited about a +HPT).  I totally recognize that we have to get excited about the little things, since we are all so used to being disappointed at the end of a cycle, but still...  It just feels like it's getting a little old.  I am in the middle of taking provera after a busted cycle, so now I'm all preoccupied with when will I get my period and get to start Femara and then once I do start it, will I ovulate too early?  or what happens if I go in for my mid-cycle ultrasound and there is nothing again?  What happens next?  There are just some days I wish it didn't have to be so complicated.  Does anyone else feel this way? or am I just cranky because it's a beautiful day outside and I'm still at work? Ok vent over.     

ChicagoWeded2007

I know what you mean, we are always waiting for something.  SA results, Uro appointment, u/s appointment, trigger shot, IUI.  And I do get excited for each step...usually counting down the days until one thing or another.

eandk18

Funny you wrote this because I was just thinking this!  I get excited cause each week I have "something" to look forward to.  Taking the clomid pills, getting the ultrasound, getting the 7 dpo bloodwork and it just starts over again  I know WAY too much about my reproductive system!  

seymourthepony

I know what you mean, I am sitting at the airport praying I get my period so I can take the clomid and my DH & I will be in the same city at the right time!! I always am waiting on the world to change! My fertility world!

Bonadori

I know how you feel!!

kasey9kahne

You are not alone.  I think about and wish the complicated stuff was just easy for everyone.

CoraGold1980

Ugggh..I know exactly how you feel! First for me was the Provera and waiting and waiting for my period.. then it was waiting for the 3rd cycle day to take the clomid, then it was waiting for the day to start testing for +opk's then it was bd'ing and waiting for +HPT. At first I thought the anxiety would be over the second i saw that I at least ovulated, but i was wrong. Then I had to take more test just to make sure that i ovulated, and the rest of the tests came back negative. So now I am questioning if i did even ovulate. Now I am waiting, and waiting and waiting to take a HPT and take it from there... just to start the whole cycle again! It's so draining sometimes. Sometimes I get sad, because i just want it to be easy just like you said. But i guess nothing in life thats worth it comes easy..

 

Good luck to you ALL!

 

JMay

Yes, Yes, Yes.  I thought I knew quite a bit because of PCOS when I got my surprise bfp with DD.  As much as I knew, it was nothing compared to what I know now.  It sucks.  It's hard to get excited, and it's very hard to deal with disappointment cycle after busted cycle.  Especially when those cycles can last for months.  I'm jealous of girls who at least get a chance every month or so.  The more you know, the more there is to worry about.  I hope I'm not too much of a downer - just want to let you know you're not the only one!   Hang in there Swetie!

msc233

You aren't the only one who gets excited when things "work".  I mention to the gyno that I have had more periods this year (with provera and 3 rounds of clomid) than I did all last year since coming off the BCP. He laughed and said it was nice that I was staying positive about the whole thing.

It is frustrating when you know you aren't pregnant and are waiting and waiting and waiting for your period to come in order to maybe try the next cycle.

Last year I ovulated 1x by myself on cd 29.  Using the drugs I am definitely ovulating much sooner (positive OPK on CD 16 like clockwork).