I went out with a friend/neighbor who also had twin micro-preemies, and one of her friends came along who is 32 weeks pregnant. I asked her if I could touch her belly and I started crying! I love pregnant bellies and it just made me sad remembering mine and thinking how I didn't make it that far and how I will never have a (planned) prego belly again. I didn't think that would be so hard and hit me like that. I definitely was not expecting to get emotional. So ladies, beware of your emotions when you touch a prego belly!
Honestly, I have to fight jealousy and anger whenever I see a pregnant woman bc I'm not anymore. It is definately hard... I then try to reverse my karma by saying a quick prayer that they don't have to go through what we have
This is so hard! I think I came to a new conclusion recently that gave me a little peace (as compared to my jealous resentment and sadness over the pregnant ladies out there). I decided that pregnancy is a very hard journey, even when someone is labeled as "normal." I am very screwed up from my screwed up pregnancies, but I stopped resenting that I would have that "normal" experience and the "normal" belly, etc. It's all relative. I am a work in progress.
I miss my pregnant belly too, and it's hard to see the new moms taking their babies out of the hospital when I go to see my son in the NICU. I was lucky to make it to 34 weeks with him, but I had been so looking forward to the "full effect" -- wanting to see just how big I would get. Now I've got this strangely shaped pudgy thing for a belly and sometimes it hits me that it's empty and makes me sad.
But there are worse things, so I try to count my blessings every day.
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kikijbunny (formerly kikijbird)
Our jbunny born April 17, 2011 at 34w 1d (EDD May 28) due to irritable ute + early dilation
Re: Someone's baby bump made me emotional
I miss my pregnant belly too, and it's hard to see the new moms taking their babies out of the hospital when I go to see my son in the NICU. I was lucky to make it to 34 weeks with him, but I had been so looking forward to the "full effect" -- wanting to see just how big I would get. Now I've got this strangely shaped pudgy thing for a belly and sometimes it hits me that it's empty and makes me sad.
But there are worse things, so I try to count my blessings every day.
Ten months: Mr. Giggles!
A10 March Siggy: Next vacation - Maine!
kikijbunny (formerly kikijbird)
Our jbunny born April 17, 2011 at 34w 1d (EDD May 28) due to irritable ute + early dilation
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