highs and lows of PCOS (longish)

lovin life23

Hi ladies, I know I haven't been on much lately..with our endo appt not til the 22nd, me again not Oing this month and on CD 32 and counting I have felt so stuck in our TTC journey..I'm sure after the 22nd I will have more info etc.

 I have also stayed away for lack of interest I suppose, but not b/c I dont love my 3Ters or this board ( I do!) It's that I had another "epsode" this past week with my highs and lows of PCOS. Most days I feel just fine, even in limbo it seems I still feel confident about us and ttc, we are just on a different route. But sometimes I get these bad waves of emotions..usually 1-2 days but this time the sadness came at at time when DH and I were fighting and so that's making this "low" period last longer...I dont think its depression or Bopilar disorder or something like that..maybe just crazy/intense mood swings..and when it goes away I feel relieved, a little beat up emotionally, but normal once again..seeing the Endo on the 22nd I hope to just let him know, get some insight and go from there..

 Any other PCOSers go thru intense moodswings? I mean not moodswings we joke at like PMS, I mean mood swings that make you wonder or just be a little concerned..this side effect isnt high lighted much from things I have read as far as PCOS and if it is its in those who are IR, which I am not...thanks for the vent..have a good friday all

adaisybug

I do not have PCOS, but I definitely deal with the moodswings of IF. I had a really, really bad day on Monday. Thats the lovely rollercoaster of IF.

 

I hope you get some answers on the 22nd!

Das24

Now that you mention this, I wonder if it could be possible. I have PCOS, but am not IR. I was on the same BCP for about 8 years and then switched to something else. While taking it, I realized I was more and more moody. I then switched again and noticed that, though it wasn't as bad, I was still experiencing more mood swings than I thought I had before. My husband noticed them as well.

So I wonder if it is something that can be a little "out of whack" since our hormones aren't clearly regulated. It's definitely an interesting question. I know mine were worse with the 2nd BCP I tried, and I think that's what pointed them out more than anything else. I do know, though, that I've always had my high points mixed in with some low ones, regardless of the regularity. I'd be interested to see what other ladies have to say as well...

Jezebell26

YES! You are not alone (and now either am I!!) I must say a lot of my mood swings are Provera driven lol but man is it crazy! It is amazing how i can go from one extreme to the other and have no idea why. And im telling myself "why are you doing this?" as im doing it but yet that doesn't stop me. I also have pcos and im sure that has a lot to do with it. Just try and take it one day at a time. I finally had a talk with DH and explained to him that this is mainly side effects and that im a hot emotional mess. He now realizes that sometimes if i pick a fight with him to not fight back and to tell me he realizes its a "moment" and that everything is ok. I can't tell you how much that has helped. He also sometimes brings home flowers and when i have a "moment" he tells me to go to my "happy place". I also decided to go back to therapy and have sessions close together when i have treatment or when i know i'll be under a lot of stress.

Sorry this got so long. Hope you feel better soon and feel free to PM me if you ever want to talk! HUGS

JSRICH

Sometimes for no reason at all I will just sit and cry. I cry about IF, and how it's "not fair". I cry for the baby I wish I had already.

I think its normal when people are going through things like this. I am a VERY emotional person, and MH knows when I get in a funk, he just holds me and assures me that one day, we will have a LO.

I also have mood swings like whoa. Ill be an angel and have fun one minute, and Ill be a raging b!tch the next. Its a little better when Im on BC though.

I just hope I dont get the "clomid crazies" next month and kill everyone I know or drown them in a river of tears.

Aislyen

Isn't it odd how we do that? I do the same thing. I'll be so super sad and have no idea what is wrong. I can't place it. I'll cry over anything. My pencil led snaps, and I'm pitching a fit. Then an hour or two later I'm happy as a Medow Lark. It's really frustrating. My poor husband probably thinks I'm nuts. I'm really sorry you are going through this, it is very hard. My sister in law has the same thing. She got up to around 310 pounds before her weight loss surgery. I talk to her sometimes, and she describes it like feeling pregnant one day, menopausal the next, and then back to pregnant. Our hormones make us nuts. It is also really hard, because it's like the bigger I get, the harder it is to lose the weight, and the worse the pcos gets. And the worse it gets, the bigger I get. Nice vicious circle. But don't lose hope. My sis-in-law has 3 boys and a little girl on the way. Her youngest little boy was concieved when she was overweight and "not ovulating." The dr was totally shocked, still maintains she was not ovulating, ("no, no, you no have baby") and when she asked how this happened, he just pointed upward and said "It not in my hands!" (He's from China, I think). Good luck. You're not crazy, you're hormonal. I feel your pain. :-)

JMay

I don't post here too often, but I HAVE to reply to this - my DH would scream a very loud "YES!  SHE DOES THAT!"  I drive him nuts - he always says living with me is like living on a roller coaster - there are many ups and downs and you never know what's next.  And I do not have any disorder other than PCOS.  Some periods of time I'm pretty even keel, then I'll go through productive highs and lazy lows - I've seen that it pretty much corresponds to how "whacked out" my temp chart is - the more normal the chart, the more normal my moods.  Charts that look like EKGs usually mean I've been driving my family and myself nuts.  More than IF not being fair, I find it's incredibly unfair to be such a slave to hormones.  I might as well have a psychological disorder sometimes because I can't control it, though I have found that working out, acupuncture and a diet low in dairy and carbs really help stabilize my mood.  GL to you, and know you are not alone!