When pain become suffering... vent

Nickiechan

I always thought this going into childbirth. When pain becomes suffering then I'll ask for an epidural. I can get though pain for hours, but once I start to suffer then I will do what I need to do. I always wanted a natural birth and I will push for that even now. I was diagnosed with severe SPD and currently bound to a wheelchair and using a walker in my own home. I over did it this past weekend and tried to be 'normal' and participate in the mat exercises at our childbirth preparation class. Well... these last three days have been hell... I think the pain is making me a bit crazy. I started to get in the shower at 2am to have hot water run down my back and had DH rub my lower back/pelvis area for a good hour. I've been trying my hardest to get though this pain without the help of narcotics (They gave me a prescription back in the beginning of March... and I filled it, but had little intentions on using it. ) However, the last two days have really pushed my limited and broke down and took the medication. I feel like a bad mother because they are category C... They did help me get a good bit of sleep... (since I don't sleep much anymore) It just depresses me that I resorted to that, and that the pain is back again... and I don't want to keep taking the medication. I really don't know how I am going to make it another 7 weeks... like this... I can get though anything for a couple of hours... but it has been four weeks with this pain and I cannot take it anymore... Thank you for reading...

IdigDirt

I am so sorry you are having to go through this It does not sound pleasant at all but you are being such a trooper about it. I would be crying all the time but this is the first time I have heard you vent about this. Don't beat yourself up over taking the meds, they were prescribed for a reason and you are not helping baby if you are in that much pain. Just do whatever you have to do to get through the next 7 weeks, good luck!

Nickiechan

samara826:

I am so sorry you are having to go through this It does not sound pleasant at all but you are being such a trooper about it. I would be crying all the time but this is the first time I have heard you vent about this. Don't beat yourself up over taking the meds, they were prescribed for a reason and you are not helping baby if you are in that much pain. Just do whatever you have to do to get through the next 7 weeks, good luck!

I've been crying about it every day and night. It is very depressing... not just the pain, but the limited mobility. The OB sent me to therapy, so I am getting help in the mental area. I have to try to keep my head in the right place... It is so easy to get deep in depression. The OB said that I need to look at the positive out of these things.... and I am trying my hardest, but it is hard to be positive when you are in so much pain. I have 52 days until my EDD... I just have to get though next hour... next day... next week...

IdigDirt

Nickiechan:

samara826:

I am so sorry you are having to go through this It does not sound pleasant at all but you are being such a trooper about it. I would be crying all the time but this is the first time I have heard you vent about this. Don't beat yourself up over taking the meds, they were prescribed for a reason and you are not helping baby if you are in that much pain. Just do whatever you have to do to get through the next 7 weeks, good luck!

I've been crying about it every day and night. It is very depressing... not just the pain, but the limited mobility. The OB sent me to therapy, so I am getting help in the mental area. I have to try to keep my head in the right place... It is so easy to get deep in depression. The OB said that I need to look at the positive out of these things.... and I am trying my hardest, but it is hard to be positive when you are in so much pain. I have 52 days until my EDD... I just have to get though next hour... next day... next week...

 Stay strong, it is not much longer. I know so many people say you should love pregnancy but it can suck and there is no shame in hating it. I hope the next 52 days fly by for you. Lots of hugs!!