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Not A Good Day...

LaTi07LaTi07 member
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I hate the world. I hate everything about it. I hate the sun, the clouds, the people laughing. I hate that the world is still going like nothing happened while I have this huge void in my heart. I hate that I have no place to go to visit my little one. There is no grave for me to put balloons at on his/her birthday. I have no urn to hold close to my heart. All I have are the few sonogram pictures to prove that my baby DID exist. I hate that everyone is down playing his/her death. Acting like it was no big deal. If it was no big deal then why am I so broken inside? Everyone says "everything happens for a reason" yet not one person can tell me that reason! I want to know why. I want an answer. I want someone to tell me what I could have done differently. I am supposed to be getting excited about telling our families, but instead I'm picking out memorial jewlery so I have SOMETHING to hold. I don't want to try for another baby. I want MY baby back. Crying

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♥BFP #1 "Spawn"- 02/23/11 | EDD: 11/01/11 | natural m/c 03/20/11 @7w5d♥
♥BFP #2 "Offspring"- 11/10/12 | EDD: 07/25/13 | incomplete m/c 12/14/12 @8w1d | D&C 12/21/12♥
♥BFP #3 "Progeny" - 02/16/15 | It's a BOY!! | EDD: 10/17/15 | BD: 10/23/15♥
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  • boymamacoboymamaco member
    Oh sweetie. I'm so sorry. There are no right words. Sending you hugs. xo
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  • nicole52nicole52
    I am so very, very sorry.
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  • krissywavekrissywave member
    I am sorry that everyone is trying to down play it.  Those who have gone through this know and understand how you feel.  I dont wish this on anyone.  Just do what you need to heal and dont pay other that much attention.
    April 10 IUI BFN Sept 10 IUI BRN Feb 11 IVF hoping for a BFP! Feb 27 ER 28 eggs Mar 4 8 health eggs, 2 ET Mar 17 - Beta 180!! BFP!!! Mar 21 - Beta 1295!! holy cow what a jump Coming soon 1st Sono March 30!!! Crossing fingers for healthy stick bean(s) Mar 29 miscarry :( 6w 3d 2nd IVF July 2011 BFP July 2011 M/C 11/11/11 hate to say good bye again! Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers 3rd IVF 4/3/12 ER 46 eggs (holly cow batman) 40 mature, 36 fertilized 4/8/12 ET 2 AB put back 4/10/12 15 make it to FREEZE 4/22/12 Beta BFN 1st FET 6/7/12 Day we are going to put back 2. 6/21/12 BFP 1285 6/25/12 4780 I hope this time they stick!! Deaglan William welcome. My rainbow is finally here February 7, 2013
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  • jkfranklinjkfranklin member
    I'm so sorry.  Please remember it is not your fault.  There is nothing you could have done differently.  Left Hug
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  • yeliza hyeliza h member
    Sending you a big hug!

    5/9/2013 = Our rainbow was born!!

    08/18/2012 - BFP (Hoping this is our rainbow!)
    06/24/2012 - Loss confirmed at 12 weeks
    12/14/2010 - Loss baby girl at 20 weeks due to Turner Syndrome
    01/2009 - Chemical Pregnancy

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  • TysiaTysiaTysiaTysia
    i feel exactly the same...
    D & C 3.19.2011 (EDD 10.08.11) WTTC #1
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  • 1220winterbride1220winterbride member
    oh, sweetie, hugs, hugs hugs. I am so very sorry.

    My heart is as open as the sky.
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  • andrea3122andrea3122 member
    I'm so sorry.
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  • hopefulmom81hopefulmom81 member

    imagejkfranklin:
    I'm so sorry.  Please remember it is not your fault.  There is nothing you could have done differently.  Left Hug

     

    This.  I am so sorry.  Please know you are not alone. 

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  • sessa717sessa717
    i'm so sorry. there is nothing anyone can say to make you feel better. i understand how you feel. hang in there. you have to feel it.
    BFP #1: 1/27/11, mc 3/17/11 at 9w2d, baby measured at 8w3d, no heartbeat BFP #2: 5/13/11; beta #1: 382, beta #2: 7842. heartbeat: 103 at 6 weeks; 146 at 7 weeks, 165 at 9 weeks, 173 at 12 weeks, 158 at 16 weeks. BabyFruit Ticker
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  • LaTi07LaTi07 member
    Thank you ladies for your support. Yesterday was just all around a crappy day. Like I'm sure many of you know, the grief comes and goes. One day I will be fine. I will be laughing and telling jokes. The next I'm completely a wreck. I just wish my heart would pick a side and commit to it. If that's the grief side then so be it, but this back and forth sucks! My poor DH has no idea what to do with me at this point. Sad

    My Old Blog | My Chart | TTCAL Shenanigans
    ♥BFP #1 "Spawn"- 02/23/11 | EDD: 11/01/11 | natural m/c 03/20/11 @7w5d♥
    ♥BFP #2 "Offspring"- 11/10/12 | EDD: 07/25/13 | incomplete m/c 12/14/12 @8w1d | D&C 12/21/12♥
    ♥BFP #3 "Progeny" - 02/16/15 | It's a BOY!! | EDD: 10/17/15 | BD: 10/23/15♥
    All AL Always Welcome

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