I need serious thoughts and prayers

canthardlywait426

 So today started out like any other day. Wake up early with a crying colic baby. And then the shiit storm started.

Cooper is sick. He was coughing, runny nose, the works. He got it from my husband who is currently sick. I obviously know Im next. 

Then I go to the dr to go get my mirena put in and and of course, I have a lump that is suspicious and because I am very prone to cancer, I have to get it biopsied. My grandmother and mother both had ovarian cancer, and I have stage 4 endometriosis. So the odds arent really in my favor here. Kinda funny how I was approached about scheduling the hysterectomy, discussed it with DH and then decided we'd wait and just go on Mirena for now...and then I get a lump. LOVELY.

SO I call my husband to tell him whats going on and he tells me that our insurance is going up by $44 a week. Fabulous. 

So I call my MIL to tell her and to see if she can take next Friday off because I need help that day (the day of the biopsy) and she says "Yes, I can watch Cooper for the day because I wont be working that day." I say "Oh, you took that day off?" and she said "No, I was laid off."  After 22 effin years with her company she was laid off. 

Which is the icing on the cake because my FIL was laid off 3 months ago and hasnt found work yet. 

Today sucks on so many levels. I dont even know how to come out from above this right now.

 

MrsTechie

Oh, honey! ((((HUGE HUGS))))

I'm so sorry today has been such a mess! Words don't make it better but you know I love you and will be keeping you in my thoughts extra much right now. (yes, I said that exactly as I meant to.)

CamilleJon

I'm so sorry. You don't deserve any of that shiit.

T & P's

nursedevivo

Yikes that's scary! Hope that the biopsy turns out alright....hope things start looking up for you all soon.

canthardlywait426

Im just in tears. I am to the point where I dont understand how one person can handle so much. Were doing all this while my mother has up and disappeared because shes scared of my stepfather who hit her. I have seen her once in 5 weeks and when she left she wouldnt tell me where she was going, but made sure to give me her ATM cards and tell me the PIN in case she dies. Fun.

I keep getting hit over and over and over again. I keep getting knocked down and I keep getting up, but I just dont know how to get up anymore.

I feel so defeated.

JulietL129

I'm so sorry hun :-( I'm praying super hard that the lump is absolutely nothing! (((huge hugs))) I'm always here mama, if you need me. And I hope little man gets over his bug quickly

nursedevivo

canthardlywait426:

Im just in tears. I am to the point where I dont understand how one person can handle so much. Were doing all this while my mother has up and disappeared because shes scared of my stepfather who hit her. I have seen her once in 5 weeks and when she left she wouldnt tell me where she was going, but made sure to give me her ATM cards and tell me the PIN in case she dies. Fun.

I keep getting hit over and over and over again. I keep getting knocked down and I keep getting up, but I just dont know how to get up anymore.

I feel so defeated.

I think you need to CIO.

canthardlywait426

nursedevivo:

canthardlywait426:

Im just in tears. I am to the point where I dont understand how one person can handle so much. Were doing all this while my mother has up and disappeared because shes scared of my stepfather who hit her. I have seen her once in 5 weeks and when she left she wouldnt tell me where she was going, but made sure to give me her ATM cards and tell me the PIN in case she dies. Fun.

I keep getting hit over and over and over again. I keep getting knocked down and I keep getting up, but I just dont know how to get up anymore.

I feel so defeated.

I think you need to CIO.

I would have to agree. But if I go longer than 15 seconds and someone doesnt come get me, youre in trouble.

ReneeDear

T & P are with you.  Hopefully, it will get better.   My MIL left her abusive husband a year ago.  It has been totally exhausting for me supporting her.  I can't imagine having health problems and employment issues on top of that.  Remember we are here if you need to talk or just vent.

Gr8ful_m0m

sending positive thoughts you and your family's way. I hope the biopsy turns out to be nothing to fear- one step at a time. Hugs!

saram913

That is for you and everyone in your family right now. T & P for sure.

GrayGhost13

I am so sorry you're going through all this. You and your family will definitely be in my thoughts.

xxbabycakesxx

big time t&p to you and your family.  it seems when sh!t happens its not just one thing, it usually has to be a whole sh!tload of sh!t, hey?  i really hope the lump is nothing and your in laws find new jobs!  oh and hopefully cooper gets over this cold soon.  definitely CIO and im sure one of us will come get you in 15 sec! 

Kristi221

Oh man! I'll definintely keep you in my T&Ps. You've got a huge load on you but you have a whole group of women here to support you! I hope you hear from your mom soon and that the biopsy goes well.

mrslucid

Sorry to hear that you're going through all of this.  That is a lot to deal with all at once.  I hope everything gets better soon and sending postive vibes that the biopsy will turn out negative.

abovewedding

I am so sorry. I know not a lot can be said to make you feel better right now, but just know that we're all here for you and praying for you and tomorrow is another day.

I think this calls for you to put your feet up and have a glass of wine and a movie and order in dinner. Or at least just do nothing for the rest of the day. 

Keep us posted on your appointment and I hope Cooper gets better soon! 

 

welshgirl

Oh my goodness - what an awful day! Sending lots of T&P your family's way!

1happygirl782

I am so sorry you have to go through all of this at once (or at all).  My thoughts and prayers will be directed towards you.

bosha711

I am so sorry you're getting all this bad news. Many healthy vibes to you all}}}}}}

lilmgirl

I'm so sorry girl   I really hope things start turning around for your family.  {{hugs}}

principessa81

*hugs* I am so, so sorry. I can't believe you're going through all of this right now. T&P to you and your family.

Moonbeam828

I'm really sorry you've been hit with all of this, especially all at once.  That is a lot to bear.  You come across as an incredibly strong woman, and if anyone can handle all this, you can.  I agree with the others that a glass of wine and a good CIO session is in order.  I'll be thinking of you and your family.

GavsMomAlready+Newbie

I'm sorry the whole thing sounds like a nightmare. T&P are going your way.

Chick7806

big hugs... i love ya girl.

watermellens

I'm so sorry! Thinking of you and hoping things turn around soon...

Marie6

I'm so sorry you are dealing with all that! You are in my prayers. ((hugs))

our1stbaby2010

I'm sorry you are going through this.  Know that you are a strong woman and you will get through this.  I had a rough patch in 2009 and I remember reading this and thinking I can make it!  You will too, it won't bea easy but you will. 

Patience Strong
If you stand very still
in the heart of a wood...
You will hear many wonderful things
The snap of a twig
and the wind in the trees
And the whirl of invisible wings

If you stand very still
in the turmoil of life
And wait for the voice from within
You will be led down the quiet ways
of wisdom and peace...
In a world of chaos and din

If you stand very still
And hold to your faith
You will get all the help that you ask
You will draw from the silence
all the things that you need
Hope and courage and strength for your tasks.

Lilystar82

Sending you tons of thoughts and prayers (((hugs)))

belizeitornot

I have no words other than I'm so sorry. That is a shiit ton of bad things to deal with and I send lots of hugs and t&p to you and your family!

elaforgia

Ugh what a crappy day. I'm so sorry for all that's going on. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers and I hope the biopsy shows nothing!

babyonthebrain2010

  :hugs:  I'm so sorry, I'll be thinking of you extra!

janneann1127

wow, i am so sorry, what a sh!tstorm of crap. sending lots of positive thoughts your way.

awagner122210

wow...no one should ever have to go through all that...T&P's your way about your biopsy, & your family

JesscanTri

I'm so sorry to hear that so many awful things are happening at once. I'll keep you in my thoughts.

flcountrygirl

T&P's heading your way, from all your Dec. 10 mommies... I hope that things get better for you, no one deserves this!

[Deleted User]

Lots of T&P your way.  I'm so sorry this is happening.  Let us know if you need anything & Dec. moms are always here with an ear!  ((hugs))

cupcakes710

Oh my gosh I'm so so sorry!  Lots of prayers coming your way.  Try to remember that "If God takes you to it, He'll get you through it."  

canthardlywait426

Thanks so much ladies. It helps knowing there are so many people who care. Once today is over and we can start fresh tomorrow I'm sure well all feel a little better. It's just hard when you keep getting one hit after another.

Sonadora

::hugs::

Mommytott

Ugh I am so sorry you are going though so much at one time!  I am sending lots of thoughts and prayers your way!

beansie23

So sorry you're going through this right now. Hopefully the biopsy will come back clear. T&P!!