Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
sad loss
On January 12th we found out that I was pregnant. It was a surprise to us my fiance and I were so excited . We had our first OBGYN apt on 1/25/11 it was surreal the baby heart beat so fast on the monitor. I had severe morning sickness all day and low iron but i took my prescribed iron and prenatal pills every day and ate even when I felt I did not have the strength. On 2/15/11 on our scheduled 10 week check up the doctor reported that there was no heart beat and it looked like baby stopped growing 9 weeks 5 days. I felt like I was swallowed by a black hole. My fiance cried so much , we decided to to the D & C and check in to the hospital on 2/18/11. I feel like this is a nightmare that I will wake up from . My fiance hid all the baby books and sonograms because I think he is afraid that I will go over the deep end. I just feel so sad to know that there was a life growing within me whom i talked to from the first day I found out he/she was with me to now feeling so empty . One day at a time.
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Re: sad loss
Adopted our furbaby Kona ~ January 17, 2010
Trying to grow our family ~ June 2010
1st BFP 7.6.10 ~ EDD 3.15.11 ~ mmc 8.6.10 ~ d&c 8.11.10
2nd BFP 11.4.10 ~ EDD 7.15.11 ~ HB 6w3d ~ No HB 7w ~ mmc 12.8.10 ~ d&c 12.9.10
3rd BFP 7.12.11 ~ EDD 3.22.12 ~ HB 6w5d 124 bpm ~ Team Green ~ SHE STUCK!
*~*~*~*EXPECT MIRACLES*~*~*~*
Praying for peace in God's ultimate plan ~ "Be still and know that I am God." -Psalm 46:10
I'm so sorry for you loss. My story is very similar, so unfortunately, I can relate. I put my baby books and sonograms in a box, and it's comforting for me to know I have those pictures as memories, but I just can't look at them every day.
I hope you can find some comfort here. I know it's been very helpful for me. Again, I'm so sorry you're going through this. ::hugs::
Clomid + Met = BFP#1 12/27/10, missed MC discovered 2/9/11, d&c 2/11/11, 10w3d
Natural cycle (just Met) = BFP#2 6/3/11, Baby A arrived 2/16/12
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Unfortunately, I can relate all to well to what you are going through. Last week, I had my second misarriage at 13 weeks. Went in for an ultrasound and there was no heartbeat. It felt exactly how you said, it was a nightmare that I was praying to wake up from.
With my past experience, I know you will never forget the loss, but it does get easier as time goes on. I try to think of it as another little angel that I added to heaven. My grandfather passed away the day before I found out I was pregnant, so now my little angel is with him.
Best wishes.