Can I complain for a moment? — The Bump
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Can I complain for a moment?

Ever since I started with my new department (back in August), my cycle has flipped out.  Mostly stress, I'm sure - the weirdest cycles coincide with the most stressful times.

Things are better at work since my old boss left.  My colleague was just hired to her position, and it makes my own job way, way more secure so things are better in addition to simply being more settled in with my departments and closer to being caught up generally.

But still.  Funky.  I thought I'd finally ovulated in January (weak ovulation, but still an ovulation), and then things were going well this cycle, I thought.  Until today, when I've been spotting all freaking day and now have cramping.  UGH.

UGH.

My cycle being screwy makes it that much harder to decide if we want to ttc or not.  Not a fan.  I definitely need to make my annual appointment and make sure there aren't other possible issues, and then talk to Dr. B about testing.  Is it crazy that I'm sort of uninterested in starting that up?   It's just that we know there will be so much trouble keeping a pregnancy to viability/term that I don't want to hassle with fertility treatments on top of that.  It makes me question whether it's worth it, and if we shouldn't just focus on saving up for a gestational surrogate.


Gabriel Ross - August 24, 2009 * Vivienne Rose - May 1, 2012

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Re: Can I complain for a moment?

  • Take away stressful job and saving up for a gs and I could have written this. I'm standing right on the precipice of saying no more but at the same time it's impossible to do that without going on some kind if birth control (which is ridiculous seeing as I've never been on birth control in my life) because every single cycle no matter how fuucked up it is hold the possibility. And even if I do get regnant again there isn't a very strong likelihood that I will stay pregnant so why bother? Wow sorry to go off in your post. Long story short- I feel ya.
    Fuuck TTC - I'm moving on.
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  • Go off!  Absolutely!  It's so damn frustrating to face down a high-risk pregnancy and know going in that the best thing you can hope for is bi-weekly appointments, multiple docs/specialists, surgery a third of the way through, and if all goes well, minimal restrictions and then turn around and not be able to get pregnant to begin with.

    Bah!

    And I can't go on birth control!  If I could, it would all be easier to just stop for awhile, take care of things that are outstanding, and give it another go/wait for work to settle a bit more.  But because of family history, hormonal bc is out for me.  Because of the ectopic, IUD is out for me.  So that leaves barriers.  Which, sure, we could use, but it won't actually do anything to ease my anxiety.  FAM worked for 6 years before we started ttc, why add stress and expense?

    I said it on my blog, but really, I just want the decision made for me, I guess.  Adulthood is far more like what my mother warned me it would be than what I thought it would be.  While I do get to stay up until midnight if I want to do, I do have the pay the bills!  What a *** deal!


    Gabriel Ross - August 24, 2009 * Vivienne Rose - May 1, 2012

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  • I just wish I could somehow know yes or no. That way if it was yes I could just continue down this road. If no, then I can move on. I can somehow find a way to make new plans for life. I sadly have spent the last twenty years planning on one thing for my life. If that's not going to happen I need to figure something else out. The whole thing just sucks.
    Fuuck TTC - I'm moving on.
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    "Ew. I've read all of two posts from you, and you stink like rotting garbage."
  • image MandyBrownNoser:
    I just wish I could somehow know yes or no. That way if it was yes I could just continue down this road. If no, then I can move on. I can somehow find a way to make new plans for life. I sadly have spent the last twenty years planning on one thing for my life. If that's not going to happen I need to figure something else out. The whole thing just sucks.

     Yeah, that sums it up pretty well.  Sigh.  Sorry, babe.  I wish my crystal ball was working for both of us.


    Gabriel Ross - August 24, 2009 * Vivienne Rose - May 1, 2012

    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    My Blog

  • (((((hugs))))) and more (((((hugs))))) to both of you.
  • image yogisunam:
    (((((hugs))))) and more (((((hugs))))) to both of you.
    Ditto ((hugs))
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    Fall/Winter 2011 - IVF #4 - one lost twin between 7-9 weeks
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    image yogisunam:
    (((((hugs))))) and more (((((hugs))))) to both of you.
    Ditto ((hugs))

    tritto

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    image gidge:
    image yogisunam:
    (((((hugs))))) and more (((((hugs))))) to both of you.
    Ditto ((hugs))

    tritto

    Quadritto
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