So, I'm scared (NBR)

CheyenneShaw

Today (Tuesday) I go to talk to my High School counselor about starting college next semester (I graduate HS in June). I am terrified. I already play mommy, wife, and student. By the time I start college I will have a job. Dh already has problems helping around the house (he works part time), I'm scared that I can't handle it. I'm scared that I will fail and being everything to everyone, that I will let my family down and not be able to do it. I wanted to go to cosmetology school but I threw that out of the window because I know it's not what will help my family the most and nothing is guaranteed in that field (at least not in my area). I think I am going to go into some type of childcare but I simply don't know.

Going to college isn't a choice right now, it has to be done. There are so many unknowns, it's killing me. DH is going to enroll with me, he graduated in May2010 and still doesn't know what he wants to do. I'm worried about how we are going to afford us both going to school, and how we will afford living costs when we have to move out this November. We are currently living in my grandparents spare apartment. I know there are grants, and student loans scare the sh*t out of me. I mean I know that our family will not let us fall on our butt, but it's all so overwhelming and scary and.... I don't know I guess I just need some words of encouragement.  My world has turned upside down. 6 months ago I got married and was crying because I was moving out of my childhood bedroom. I don't regret my son, or marrying DH, or "growing up so fast". The unknown is just crazy overwhelming.

 

EDIT: I know I made  a lot of grammatical errors. 1HT 

 

sherbetlemon

Not gonna lie, that's going to be hard. But you will get through it! The loans aren't as scary once you get all your paperwork together and send it in. If you have a family member to help you with the applications, or to watch your LO while you fill them out, that will be helpful. In some ways, college is easier than high school because you will be taking classes that are more interesting to you and applicable to your future life. Hang in there, four years will pass whether you go to school or not, so you may as well do the work and have something to show for it.

I have a lot of admiration for mommies who also have to balance school and work.

srporter89

i now how you feel. and it is hard, im not going to lie. but you need to think of it as being the best thing for you child in the long run. i hate having to leave me LO to go to work or school, but i know that without it, i cant provide the life i want him to have.

as for finding what you want to do, start out with general ed, thats what i did, and eventually you will find a subject you are intrested in. i took a child development class as an elective, adnd i loved it. i'm not a semester away from graduating. 

just take it one step at a time, and you'll do awesome. and just remember, it WILL be hard, but it will all be worth it in the end. 

acesup

I have to say that I admire you. I've seen your other posts on here for some time now and you're very mature for your age- which is extraordinary- whether you're a mom or not. It will be hard to attend college and be a mom and work... But you know it's what you have to do. It can be done- I have faith that you can and will do it. GL!

kerribear1717

I might be good to take only a few classes at a time (good financially and mentally).  You could always get a part time job like at a daycare or something like that.  I have lots of student loans and it sucks to know that so much of my $ now goes to paying them off.  However getting that education made it so I can have a great job.  And I never see that $ anyways so I can't miss it right?  I don't know if the college near you have these sort of programs but I always suggest this to people.  Look into being a physical therapy or occupational therapy assistant.  It pays well and in healthcare you will always have a job.  You can work in so many settings and with any population.  Plus it doesn't take the amount of years/schooling as compared to being a registered physical/occupational therapist.  The assistant jobs are usually 2 years of schooling compared to 6+ with the others.  Good luck and let us know.  Oh and you LO is too cute, love the full belly