Confession...

thebeadinglady

I am kinda freaked out by the idea of being pregnant. I know weird, I am trying so hard to get pregnant and yet the idea of having a human growing inside me kinda freaks me out on occasion. I am sure it will feel normal once I am pregnant, but it seems like it would be the weirdest sensation ever. I just looked at these underwater maternity pictures that someone posted on a photography board I am on and the lady was really tiny with this huge bump. Like you could see ribs and then it is all bump. It just looked freaky. anyway, that is what got me thinking about it again.

Anyone else ever get freaked out by the idea of being pregnant?

XXXXX222

Not freaked out by the idea of getting pregnant. But similarly I did realize that for all DH and I know about *getting* pregnant, we don't know anything about pregnancy.

Ginger71

I was when I was younger but not anymore. A part of me worries about things like cleaning and how I work out and managing the staircase in my house but the pregnancy itself does not scare me. I think it has become so unreachable to me that I am kind of desensitized.

MAbride0808

I am more freaked out about the process of then becoming not pregnant (Birth).  I know it is a natural and beautiful thing, but I don't do pain well at all.  I am so afraid of that actual part.

Melicakes

OMG ! You're totally in my head ! I was going to post something similar to this last night.

I am dying to be pregnant but I am scared of some of the things that come with it.

For instance I am terrified of bad morning sickness. I loathe having to throw up.

When I get nauseous it actually drives me to tears I hate throwing up so much, it's such a traumatic experience for me... 

I'm also afraid of getting big to the point where it hinders me from things.

I'm already a big girl , size 24 , and while of course I want the baby belly, I'm afraid that a baby belly with my bbw belly will make for a moster who can't fit down the bus aisle without scraping the aforementioned belly! When I told my mom this she laughed at me....

pennylanehd

MAbride0808:

I am more freaked out about the process of then becoming not pregnant (Birth).  I know it is a natural and beautiful thing, but I don't do pain well at all.  I am so afraid of that actual part.

This!  I am completely freaked out by the pain of giving birth, especially after my HSG hurt worse than cancer treatments.  I always think of the old Joan Rivers stand-up routine where she says giving birth now should be like it was then, where they knocked you out and then you woke up and had a cigarette and THEN you asked about the baby...

jjabs18

I feel like it has been so far away for so long and seemed like this unachievable goal that now that it is within my grasp it is freaking me out.

I've watched so many other people be pregnant that I think I know a lot about it, I'm just not sure how it's going to work in our lives.

Our bed isn't big enough for DH, me and the dog now, what will it be like when I have a huge belly?  If this IVF does work (fingers crossed) how am I going to make it through my final few months on my own since DH will be mid-season? How am I suppose to coach middle school softball during my first trimester when I'll be limited in what I am able to do?

ginogomermisser

Same as MAbride....Cant wait to get there...just scared to deliver. Terrifed of pain

Sunshine05

Yes!  I've spent so much time getting here that I feel like I'm so clueless as to what it'll actually be like to be pregnant and especially to have a kid.  I'm focused on one goal at a time, so I kind of have blinders on to that stuff. 

I am also hugely scared of labor.  I remember watching a movie when I was younger and seeing the woman scream and cry that she was in so much pain while laboring.  I told my sisters right then that I would never do that, I would "just adopt!"  lol 

If only I knew then what I was setting myself up for.  Look how much we all go through just to get to go through all that pain. 

Serendipitie

sulfababy:

Not freaked out by the idea of getting pregnant. But similarly I did realize that for all DH and I know about *getting* pregnant, we don't know anything about pregnancy.

This!!! I have been trying to GET pregnant for so long that I haven't even really given much thought to BEING pregnant. I'm almost afraid that if it happens I'm going to do something stupid or wrong. Even though that's a dumb thought. I'm almost afraid to learn anything else about being pregnant before it actually happens, like I'm going to jinx myself, and that too is dumb. IF is such a mindf*ck.

thebeadinglady

Melicakes:

OMG ! You're totally in my head ! I was going to post something similar to this last night.

I am dying to be pregnant but I am scared of some of the things that come with it.

For instance I am terrified of bad morning sickness. I loathe having to throw up.

When I get nauseous it actually drives me to tears I hate throwing up so much, it's such a traumatic experience for me... 

I'm also afraid of getting big to the point where it hinders me from things.

I'm already a big girl , size 24 , and while of course I want the baby belly, I'm afraid that a baby belly with my bbw belly will make for a moster who can't fit down the bus aisle without scraping the aforementioned belly! When I told my mom this she laughed at me....

Dud you are totally in my head now. Morning sickness scares the crap out of me! For me throwing up means I need to go to the hospital because I am most likely having a Crohn's flare. I am going to have to work hard not to freak out every time I throw up if this works.

I have the opposite fear about belly size though. I am afraid I won't get a bump at all and I won't look pregnant because I am already a size 22.  

Melicakes

thebeadinglady:

Melicakes:

Dud you are totally in my head now. Morning sickness scares the crap out of me! For me throwing up means I need to go to the hospital because I am most likely having a Crohn's flare. I am going to have to work hard not to freak out every time I throw up if this works.

I have the opposite fear about belly size though. I am afraid I won't get a bump at all and I won't look pregnant because I am already a size 22.  

 

Do you want to laugh? When ever I am nauseous ( which doesn't happen often thank God!) I pray and pray and hope and wish whatever's trying to come out will um take another avenue for exiting LOL

I kid you not , the last time I can remember actually throwing up was 2002, every other time since then I should have upchucked I did my desperate begging for another option and it happened LOL

Feel free to call me crazy , I already know this

I'm scare that method will fail me for pg morning sickness

As far as the belly bump, I think as big girls in general, we'll still look like big girls for most of the pgcy, BUT we're just big girls , not Jerry Springer sent a crane to the house to rescue us through the window huge girls so I think that we'll get our baby belly, even if it's just towards the end

I told myself that whenever I get PG I'm going to get one of those t shirts that say "I'm pregnant not just fat "

thebeadinglady

Melicakes:

I told myself that whenever I get PG I'm going to get one of those t shirts that say "I'm pregnant not just fat "

I have one picked out that says Finally! with arrows pointing to your belly. I am going to be a very annoying pregnant lady.

MBfromBMC

I definitely feel this way a lot.  I have posted this before, but I am absolutely desperate to be a mother, but have no real desire or need to go through the PG process.  I just know that it will be really hard on me and will lead to inevitable weight gain.  No one in my family has had an easy, carefree pregnancy in generations, and the birth stories in my family are horrifying. 

Sometimes I am afraid that I will gain back all of the weight that I have lost, or that I will suffer postpartum depression, or any of these other things that are prominent in my family history.  I just want to be a mom and I totally understand your fears.  

Melicakes

That sounds cute ! I want one too lol

MBfromBMC

Melicakes:

thebeadinglady:

Melicakes:

Dud you are totally in my head now. Morning sickness scares the crap out of me! For me throwing up means I need to go to the hospital because I am most likely having a Crohn's flare. I am going to have to work hard not to freak out every time I throw up if this works.

I have the opposite fear about belly size though. I am afraid I won't get a bump at all and I won't look pregnant because I am already a size 22.  

 

Do you want to laugh? When ever I am nauseous ( which doesn't happen often thank God!) I pray and pray and hope and wish whatever's trying to come out will um take another avenue for exiting LOL

I kid you not , the last time I can remember actually throwing up was 2002, every other time since then I should have upchucked I did my desperate begging for another option and it happened LOL

Feel free to call me crazy , I already know this

I'm scare that method will fail me for pg morning sickness

As far as the belly bump, I think as big girls in general, we'll still look like big girls for most of the pgcy, BUT we're just big girls , not Jerry Springer sent a crane to the house to rescue us through the window huge girls so I think that we'll get our baby belly, even if it's just towards the end

I told myself that whenever I get PG I'm going to get one of those t shirts that say "I'm pregnant not just fat "

OK, now I think you both are in my head!  I hate barfing, I am a size 20 and I regularly think about how weird/fat I will look for the first six months until it is clearly obvious that I am PG.  

Tanya+Da

Ginger71:

I was when I was younger but not anymore. A part of me worries about things like cleaning and how I work out and managing the staircase in my house but the pregnancy itself does not scare me. I think it has become so unreachable to me that I am kind of desensitized.

This exactly. but every now and then, I do get freaked out.

ErnieH

Totally want to be pregnant and have a family.  But it definitely scares the sh** outta me.  Bad things can happen, you know!!!  I remember during my first IVF cycle during the ET, I was thinking holy crap, I could really be pregnant after this.  I had a minute of doubt, but then I came to my senses!!