Feeling like a bad Mommy today:(

sliz

DD would not go to sleep last night - she was obviously tired but just wired - from 10:30-12:00 I think I changed her 4 times (she is constipated again) - then from 12-1:30 she just screamed and everytime dh got her to fall asleep she would wake right back up - she sleeps in bed with us so then I nursed her to sleep but had to pee so I gently eased her onto the bed but when I came back she was awake again and would sleep - I tried to hold her down on my chest and make her sleep but was afraid I was getting too upset and tense so I put her between us in the bed and let her cry until I finally couldn't take and dh took her away and rocked to sleep again- ugh I felt so bad losing my patience and I guess the best thing is to put the baby down if the screaming is affecting you but I wish I was more patient - and reading about that poor sweet 6 month old who died unexpectedly makes me feel even worse cause I should be so thankful I have DD even when she has a bad night

JustaKidAtHeart

We all have bad days/nights.  You are not a bad mommy.  You realized that you needed a break and DH stepped in.  Nothing wrong with that.  As a matter of fact to me your tale sounds like you did everything right.  You tried the tricks you knew, tried nursing, tried changing, handed off when you were overwhelmed. 

Dont be so hard on yourself!

sliz

Thanks - I just feel like I should have unending patience because she is so little and depends on us for everything - but every so often when I am at the end of my rope I have to remind myself it's better to put her down than to hurt her because I am so tense - I was thinking about putting her in her sleepsack and letting her cry in her crib (which is in our bedroom) for a bit but she can roll back to front and then gets stuck on her front - I was afraid we would fall asleep and not realize she rolled and was stuck -she also inches around on her head especially when upset in a way that makes me fear she will hurt (break) her own neck (even when I put her in the bed between us) which is why I asked DH to take her

Cassian

I had a moment like that a couple weeks ago and I felt horrible about it, but it is normal, and it sounds like you made all the right decisions. Don't get too down on yourself. You love your daughter and are a great mommy!

jds0521

We all get frustrated sometimes. When DD was deep into the colic nights, I had to put her down on the bed & let DH get her too one night.