Is it irrational?

Zista

...that I'm sitting here getting all stressed that I will need to be away from my child for 15 HOURS in 18 days?  I have to fly down to SF for the day for work.  I haven't been away from him for longer than 3 hours since he was born. 

I'm trying to convince DH to fly down with me so I can nurse him during breaks in my meetings, since the flight is so cheap.  So far, no dice. 

m&m823

It's scary the first time but it'll be good for both you and your baby!  You can do it!!!  Can you Skype on your breaks, just to see that he's okay?  Which of course, he will be.   

LifesPeachy

Aw bummer DH won't go with you!! Do you have a friend or relative who would be willing to go to watch DS (perhaps at your cost) plus dinner on you? You'd be spending that much anyway if DH went. I don't think it's irrational, I think it's natural to feel that way.

blueLu25

The hardest part is leaving, and then once you are on your way you will feel FREE!!! Enjoy the break!

kristalovesjared

blueLu25:

The hardest part is leaving, and then once you are on your way you will feel FREE!!! Enjoy the break!

I agree! And you won't believe how happy you'll be to see him when you get home! 

Zista

I'm just terrified he won't eat or sleep.  Sometimes he gets on a tear, and screams at DH until I go in.  I don't want him wondering where I am, and why his mommy has abandoned him... for all he knows, permanently.   

I'd love to have a friend or family member come down for the day, and I bet they'd love exploring SF.  I'll be staying right downtown, so they could take DS to the wharf, shopping etc.  Alas, no family here, and the nanny has school that night.  Any takers?   

kaskade

kristalovesjared:

blueLu25:

The hardest part is leaving, and then once you are on your way you will feel FREE!!! Enjoy the break!

I agree! And you won't believe how happy you'll be to see him when you get home! 

And I bet there will be some rough times, but overall he may just surprise you both!  If DH is forced to step up and handle it knowing you can't save him, it might change how he handles stuff.

Good luck!

keri1013

kaskade:

kristalovesjared:

blueLu25:

The hardest part is leaving, and then once you are on your way you will feel FREE!!! Enjoy the break!

I agree! And you won't believe how happy you'll be to see him when you get home! 

And I bet there will be some rough times, but overall he may just surprise you both!  If DH is forced to step up and handle it knowing you can't save him, it might change how he handles stuff.

Good luck!

I agree with this, and with Leanne, I bet the anticipation is the worst part, it always is for me.

mishquiche

Not at all.  When I went back to work I was sometimes away from B for 11 hours thanks to my commute.  The anticipation really was the worst part, but I bet Issac and your DH will do great.

Seattle_JiLLn

Not irrational. Well at least not uncommon. I've been stressing for weeks about leaving Cooper for an evening with my best friend. Like you I'm worried that he will just cry the whole time and think I'm not coming back. But our BCC class teacher said this "he might be sad. It's ok to be sad. He will be safe and will be with someone who loves him and will take good care of him.

Zista

Seattle_JiLLn:

sad. It's ok to be sad. He will be safe and will be with someone who loves him and will take good care of him.

Awww... 

Thanks everyone.  It'll be hard to wrap my head around, but I know I'm not the only one who has had to go through this, and I'm luckier than most.  But yes, anticipation sucks.