I may have a baby in a few days, may not

starbuck71 · January 2011

I have not been on the board for the past week because I am so highly emotional that I thought I should keep it to myself. I was matched about 2 weeks ago and am SO excited....yet I am trying to keep my emotions in check knowing that the mom can change her mind at any point. I thought the adoption process had always been a roller coaster, but I had no idea how much crazier the ride could get after being matched. I just spent the past 2 weeks either dancing around my house for joy (when things looked good) or sobbing, throwing up, etc when things looked bad. Is it just me, or is this the most unbelievably difficult, painful, tearful, emotional thing to experience?

I hope to bring good news to the board next week. If not, I'll need a lot of support instead. Thanks everyone!

sw_in_kc · January 2011

I've had the same feelings. We were matched 2.5 weeks ago, and although the situation looks really good, I can't keep thinking of things turning bad for us. I've been telling all my friends that being matched has caused more stress and anxiety than waiting.

Good luck to you and I hope you are holding your baby very soon!!!

livinglosing · January 2011

Good luck!!

meganroselee · January 2011

Starbuck,

I am in exactly the same place-- my E-mom is due 12 February. You are definitely not alone in what you are feeling. I don't think I've ever been this stressed about anything in my life. To complicate matters, the adoption is going to take place in Minnesota where there is a 10d rather than 48h decision period here in Tx, so I have nearly a month to wait to see if things are going to go through... I've been feeling this weird anger with my husband...he is as cool as a cucumber and keeps saying "things will go through or they won't" I don't think he understands how badly I want this... I will definitely keep you in my prayers. Please PM me if you need to talk.

Megan