Horrendous day - vent

Izabella22

Seriously cause stressing about O, worrying about not being able to get DH to BD, having cramps since the SIS on Monday, and wondering what the eff is going on with my body isn't enough. I had a complete breakdown at work today after a long series of events which ended up turning out to be a near-disaster that we narrowly avoided. I completely lost it. I don't cry in front of people, and I was hysterical, shaking all over, weeping uncontrollably in front of a bunch of my coworkers. I was so overwrought with all the stress and people attacking me and expecting me to know things I've never been trained on that my coworkers (who aren't huggers) both gave me a group hug. I didn't eat breakfast or lunch (which I NEVER miss a meal) and ended up in a shouting match in the hallway w/ this dipdoodle who calls herself a "planner" and gets vicious when she effs up and makes it my departments problem. This after discovering multiple problems and having to fix or do damage control, I missed a meeting my interim boss asked me to go to in his stead, and I got nothing accomplished besides putting out fires. And now I'm spent. Just completely drained, and naturally all that stress isn't going to help ANYTHING ttc wise. I know I need to chill out and its not the end of the world but I think everything just came crashing down on me today. I feel broken.

On a better note, DH was able to take care of business so even though the OPK was negative, I still might have caught the "window" if I missed my surge yesterday. Or at least that's what I'm telling myself.

Tapatio

It sounds like you had a really rough day. I'm so sorry ((hugs)). I'm glad someone was able to hug you IRL, even if it was at work. Thank goodness it's Friday! Now you can try to relax a bit and unwind with some wine . As long as you and your DH are bumping uglies regularly, you should be ok. Keep taking the OPKs just in case ((extra hugs)).

iggy.d

What an awful day! I hope you have a fun, relaxing weekend. ((hugs))

Izabella22

Thanks ladies - I'm looking forward to having a beverage tonight and then its spa day tomorrow! Perfectly timed!

SheriBT

I am sorry you had such a rough day.  But I am happy you got a BD in.  Fingers crossed for you.

Izabella22

Thanks Sheri - I haven't seen you around much, how are you doing?

julesjb

Huge (((hugs))) in really sorry for your bad day that sounds like so much came to a head. I wish we could meet up for drinks after a day like today!

myaddiwaddi06

I am so so sorry you had a bad day at work. I am glad the day is over for you. Maybe you and hubby can relax this weekend. I am glad he got it together for you. I am thinking I missed my surge too but like Tapatio said just keep taking them just in case. (super big big bear hugs).

Izabella22

julesjb:

Huge (((hugs))) in really sorry for your bad day that sounds like so much came to a head. I wish we could meet up for drinks after a day like today!

You too hon, you had a horrible one too. And I totally agree on the drinks thing, sometimes I think its a shame we don't all live closer b/c it would be fun to meet some of you ladies in person for a drink! TTCAL martini night or something

Izabella22

myaddiwaddi06:

I am so so sorry you had a bad day at work. I am glad the day is over for you. Maybe you and hubby can relax this weekend. I am glad he got it together for you. I am thinking I missed my surge too but like Tapatio said just keep taking them just in case. (super big big bear hugs).

Yeah I'm a little bit hoping we missed the surge cause... I may kill DH if we have to keep this up till Sunday and we had pretty good timing I think for an earlier O BUT whatever it takes! I got my game face on! And tomorrow I'll get my spa on and all that crappy stress is gonna just melt right away!

I am hoping for a quiet peaceful weekend, a few drinks, and maybe just some chillin at home!

LilMaggs

*huge hugs*

Izabella22

I just realized I hardly bumped at all today and seriously... You all make me feel so much better! Thanks!