Prior to TTC, DH and I had agreed that if I was sick again this pregnancy, that it would be the last one. We would consider a surrogate or adoption in the future if we wanted another, but I would not be pregnant again.
Even if I feel better after 1st tri, the fact that I am sick enough to need a PICC is the deal breaker. Even though every pregnancy is different, blah, blah, blah, I'm high risk enough that it's just not worth the risk. I hate being pregnant. Like really. I hate it with every ounce of my being. And yet there are times that I lay here and get this overwhelming sadness that this is the last time I'll ever be X weeks pregnant. Ugh, wtf is wrong with me?!?! My pregnancies are hell, why would I be sad about this being the last time?!
Pregnancy hormones suck.