my DH prolly thinks im manic...(sorry, long vent)

twistedmetal

or bipolar or what ever its called here.

with a chemical pregnancy to end 2010, this cycle most likely being a bust because of waiting to find out if i was still in remission, finding out i am indeed still in remission, the crappy 2ft of rain we've gotten, the awesome 'weekend' we just spent alone camping, deployment confirmation, and hormones...

...i should be happy my poor husband doesnt believe in divorce.  its been a hair-trigger month, and the switch keeps flipping without warning.

i am happy and interactive one minute, and literally bawling my eyes out, hiding in bed the next.  i seriously need professional help

and to make it worse i just ate an entire container of cake frosting, chocolate fudge, creamy supreme...1820 calories i didnt need.

if i cant even handle my hormones now, with an empty ute, what business do i have adding more hormones to my body??? 

i think i finally know what rock bottom feels like....complete failure. 

    

emeraudecephiro

As someone who is bipolar, maybe you should look into some counseling to help you even out your moods. I'm being serious - it helped me and it was one of the first signs I had something that was wrong was moods like that.

Liz4444

I feel for you, I have been very similar since my m/c in Nov.  I can't really give you any advice, but i'm here if you want to talk...

twistedmetal

thanks guys.  even if i wanted to right now, id have to wait until nanny gets back from vacation before i could actually see someone.

....can i not just wallow in self pity and denial a bit longer?

and thanks, 90% of my friends are guys and not open/understanding enough to talk about all this with... 

Carolee

(((Hugs)))

Rawr08

I am sorry you have been feeling like that.  I hope you can get to a Dr. soon to help you out!

LilMaggs

*huge hugs*  I totally binged on a can of cream cheese frosting today, so you're not alone.

ambs21

So sorry.  Big ((hugs)).  I think we all have down and up days, but, if you think you may have a hormonal/chemical imbalance, it would be good to see a Dr.  I hope you get all the help you need!