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Scared of being so hopeful..(vent)

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Yesterday (Friday) I had no hope at all for this cycle.. me and DH weren't really clicking much this cycle and only BDed 3-4 times.. FF had put my O date on CD12.. we didn't BD anytime around then so I was like Eh.. this cycle is a bust and just went on with my way.. well when I put the this morning's temp in it changed O date to CD16 which is pretty much on target with our BDing.. (I know I should be using OPKS and was going to this cycle but never got around to buying any) so now I am super hopeful about this cycle for that reason and many others.. I am just so scared of the heartbreak of another negative test..

I just wish is was easy for all of us.. I know I'm not the only one feeling this way today..

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  • sisterraelsisterrael
    Every cycle, I try to convince myself to keep my hopes in check.  I get hopeful and mind fetus and excited anyway.  And every cycle AF hits me like a ton of bricks.  I wish this was easy for us too. Hang in there.
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    Yesterday (Friday) I had no hope at all for this cycle.. me and DH weren't really clicking much this cycle and only BDed 3-4 times.. FF had put my O date on CD12.. we didn't BD anytime around then so I was like Eh.. this cycle is a bust and just went on with my way.. well when I put the this morning's temp in it changed O date to CD16 which is pretty much on target with our BDing.. (I know I should be using OPKS and was going to this cycle but never got around to buying any) so now I am super hopeful about this cycle for that reason and many others.. I am just so scared of the heartbreak of another negative test..

    I just wish is was easy for all of us.. I know I'm not the only one feeling this way today..

    I think we all think this way. 

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  • itsmeginitsmegin

    I hope your timing works out. It's such a weird emotional roller coaster. You don't want to get your hopes up because you might be disappointed, and at the same time, the idea of getting pregnant and then possibly having another loss is also scary. It just sucks all around.

    I hope things work out for you this cycle!

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  • clausekaclauseka member
    I feel the same way every cycle.  I hope you find out your timing was perfect!  Don't let go of that hope even as scary as it is.  I know that hope that sets me up to be crushed every month is also the only thing that keeps me trying at all. ((Hugs to You))
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  • CaroleeCarolee member
    I know what you mean.  I can't help but hope, but at the same time I try to tell myself not to get too hopeful so I'm not as devastated.  Fingers crossed that this is it for you!
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  • KaitySueWhoKaitySueWho member

    imageCarolee:
    I know what you mean.  I can't help but hope, but at the same time I try to tell myself not to get too hopeful so I'm not as devastated.  Fingers crossed that this is it for you!

    Yours too!

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  • jr63_2020jr63_2020 member
    Crossing my fingers for you buddy :)
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  • Izabella22Izabella22 member
    FX for ya!
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    Sending positive vibes your way ((and hopefully some baby dust))!
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  • jertiejertie member
    I know - I wish this was easy for all of us.  It's so tough to try and maintain a positive attitude.  You don't want to be too hopeful, because it's so disappointing when AF shows (or the dreaded BFN).  I'm so sorry - and I really hope your timing worked out this month!  (FX!)

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