Back and feeling crummy

quezzo

Hi everyone. I have been away for a long while. I thought it would help me if I tried not to talk about babies and getting pregnant so much, but it hasn't. I'm at the point where I never go on facebook anymore because I am always having to hide people's statuses when I hear about their pregnancy. We went to a specialist this month and I am waiting for a ton of tests results right now. (Seriously, they took 15 viles of blood. Who even knew there was that much to test?) In August I was diagnosed with some blood clotting disorder so I have been on extra folic acid ever since. We have kept trying, but I can't even get a normal length cycle unless I am taking soy. This month is seriously crazy too. I got a positive OPK on Day 15 and had ewcm for about a week. Then on Day 29 I was testing because I had cramps (like ovulation cramps) and I remembered I had these last year when I was pregnant. I kept getting negatives so I thought I could be ovulating again. Since I work in the hospital (the nursery no less) I asked one of the nurses if it was possible to ovulate twice in one cycle 15 days apart. I thought she would say no. However, she said yes! Anyways, I am now on Day 32 and have gotten positive opks for the last three days. I'm so tired. I just feel over all of this and I am thinking it may be time to stop. We had discussed adoption if we weren't pregnant by June and right now I am inclined to wait for June to roll around. My body is just not working. 

Anyways, I am not specifically looking for advice or anything. I know a lot of people here are in the same boat so I was just looking to vent.