started off bad morning then got "good" news

LDW80

So today has not started off good.  I woke up feeling sad from a dream I was having (about pregnancy).   Then about an hour later I start to feel a little better and hear my dogs going crazy.  I look outside to see the UPS driver dropping off a package.  I went to look what it was only to see that it was the maternity shirts I ordered the day before I found out about my miscarriage.  That felt like a huge slap in the face.

Good news I can look at though, my regular dr. called me this morning (he is my DHs best friend so he is really looking out for us) and he saw pathology reports and said it doesn't look like a molar pregnancy like my OB thought it might be.  He said everything looked like a "normal" miscarriage so that is good for us in the future when we want to start trying again.  Still sad though!  He had a little talk with me about joining a support group and taking prozac if needed.  I am hesitant to take depression pills or any pills for that matter.  Has anyone taken prozac and does it/did it help for you? 

I plan on taking a nice long walk outside to get some fresh air and release some endorphins.  I hope you ladies are having a better day today.

alexa08

Sorry to hear about the rough start to your day.  It's totally normal to feel depressed after your loss, so give your self some time.  I felt really off for about 3 weeks after my D&E; there were several days there I felt very depressed, but it lifted and I started to feel normal again bit by bit. Glad to hear you have someone looking out for you.

pennynjon

I am so glad it wasn't a molar!  That has to be a relief for you.  I was just lying bed feeling like I can't even make myself get up this morning.  I was thinking about if I should talk to my docotr about antidepressants or something, but I really just don't want to take any medicine while ttc or while pregnant.  I am sorry you are feeling this way.  I hope your week gets better!  ((hugs))

adamfam

Im sorry about your loss.  That is great news that it is not molar.  One less complication for you to have to worry about. 

tdmd09

I don't have a lot of advice, but lots of hugs to you, and I'm glad you didn't end up with a molar pregnancy. My OB was concerned about that initially, too, and it was ruled out, which was a huge relief.

Best of luck to you, and I'm sorry for your loss.

LDW80

Thank you ladies for your suggestions and support.  I was able to get out and take an hour and a half walk and that helped ALOT!   I think I will try to do that daily or if I am feeling really down.  I really want to stay away from meds so if walking outside helps I am going to stick with that.

fireflies0306

I am glad that the news was good news...and you can try again.  

My counselor did speak with me about going on lexipro for my anxiety b/c i've been on xanax since we found out (i've had anxiety issues since high school).  i know i'm depressed--i have my days where i just lay in bed and can't move, or i'm just sad and can't get out of the funk.  when i take my xanax i'm fine, but then i feel like i'm not dealing through the grief.  i want to know i'm grieving, and not cover it up with medicine--no matter how it hurts.  like i told my husband, when i get to a week of me not being able to get out of bed and function, then we have an issue.  until then, i still take it a day at a time...and that includes getting out of bed in the morning.  i don't want to go on lexipro or stay on the xanac b/c they are category D drugs, and if we do decide to TTC again, I want to have as few meds in my body.  so, i found that writing either in my blog or in a word document, and exercising (20 min strength training or cardio, 10 min pilates, 10 min yoga) really helps me cope for the most part.  today was my first day back at work, and i didn't use any xanax, and i felt more like myself (although there were moments, but you'll always have those!).

but give yourself the time to grieve too!  if you don't want to go on meds, just find another way, and know that you are allowed to take this time to heal!!

GL! {hugs}