So I have written a few posts and I want to thank everyone for the answers. I thought my pregnancy would be normal with nothing wrong. As of right now I am depressed and I really don't like being pregnant.
After my miscarriage we found out that I have MTHFR, which is a clotting disorder. I don't have to inject heparin just take a baby aspirin a day. Then I failed the 1 and 3 hour glucose test and now have GD. I have to watch what I eat and check my blood sugar 4x a day. What I don't get is that since I found out I was pregnant I have been eating healthier and has lost 17 lbs. I am having such a hard time trying to prick my finger that I get so worked up and break out into a sweat and I cried myself to sleep last night ( pathetic I know ).
I am just writing how I feel and not holding it in. I don't know if anyone else feels this way and I don't think my husband would understand. I am happy I am pregnant just down right now I guess.
Oh and next wed. I have to go see the nurse and give her the paper work for my sugars, which the sheet is empty so I am sure I will get yelled at for that. And I have an ob/gyn appt. on thurs and will prolly get yelled at again. I think I may just be overwhelmed.
Thanks for reading.
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Aw, I'm sorry you're having a tough time. You've got a lot on your plate right now, so how you are feeling is completely understandable.
Is it just the idea of pricking your finger that is freaking you out, or is it the pain? Because I know that they make really really thin lancets that you can hardly even feel...maybe that would help?
We're always here for you, so feel free to come and vent to us! It will get better, I promise. ((big hugs))
peace,
katharine
Book-Kitten blog
I'm sorry things have been so difficult for you. No one ever tells us how much "work" goes into being pregnant. Have you thought about going to counseling? Being pregnant is stressful enough but you have so much more going on and I can understand why you're feeling so down.
A friend of mine went through IVF to become pregnant, and experienced a whole bunch of complications including having to take daily injections for a clotting disorder, and GD. It was hard, but she went with the flow and now has a very happy and healthy 14 month old.
Hang in there and continue to take care of yourself, which also means getting all of this out. We'll all be thinking about you.
My aunt was telling me that she went through depression while she was pregnant. This might be chemical and your doc can help. Would you be willing to give him/her a call?
I take Lovenox for MTHFR and supplementing the pregnancy is definitely a drag.
I complete understand the lack of joy surrounding a complicated pregnancy. Of course you are happy about the baby and glad to be making it through the pregnancy, it doesn't make it suck less that you are not feeling well. I have different complications but the same emotional result: on the bad days I feel like i've been run over by a truck and can't believe I have 24 more weeks of this (and I have to hope for all of those because I'm HIGH risk for preterm labor). The bad days also seem to spiral, why do the pain, nausea, headaches, pain, puking, pain all come on the same days? And then you have good days.... and on those its hard not to think of the true potential outcome of your complications. (For instance, last week I had a complete mental breakdown about how if I went on bedrest, my job probably would not be held for me because I'd be out too long, but if the baby was born too early or sick, I would struggle to find daycare and if I didn't go back to work, wouldn't I financially break us and we'd be broke the rest of this kid's life???)
My main advice in your situation is to find some sort of support for GD, it sounds like that is your biggest struggle. Check out the high risk board, I've seen a lot about GD on there. All these ladies have great advice for handling the finger prick (I couldn't do it so I don't)
Most of all, I hope you find some sort of joy in this pregnancy