Started to miscarry yesterday morning, here's my story.....

Bbelle88

I've wanted nothing more as early as I can remember to be a Mother.I married this past October and was thrilled to have found out that I was pregnant exactly 2 months after the wedding. I'm 26 and I was a bit concerned about TTC since my husband is 13 years older then me and I wasn't sure if that would play into TTC.My pregnancy test lines were faint (although my Dr's office did confirm I was indeed pregnant) and I started on and off brown discharge soon after finding out I was pregnant. These signs left me feeling uneasy and convinced something wasn't right with the pregnancy but I still wanted to believe everything was going to be fine.On Christmas day I received pregnancy books, a cute little ultrasound picture frame and those cute little picky stickys you can buy on Etsy that you stick on your belly for photos of your pregnancy belly each week....all of these things are like salt in my wounds now. I just placed them in the back of the closet.Yesterday morning, just 10 days after I found out the amazing news a sensation of pressure I usually get in my abdomen when I have my period started and was followed soon after by red blood. I sobbed as my husband held me and tried to understand how I was feeling.My appointment went well today. The midwife says that my uterus feels like it's almost already back to normal size, and I have probably passed most the tissue already and there should only be blood left so there shouldn't be a need for a D&C (sorry if TMI). We did some blood work to make sure the hormones are leaving my system (I'll find out the results tomorrow), and after one normal cycle I should be able to try again to get pregnant.I just want to be pregnant again. I'm thankful my miscarriage was such an early one (5 weeks 5 days) and I'm trying to stay positive and remind myself this happens to lots of women and things could be worse. I don't want to let myself start to get angry or jealous when I see other people pregnant or with their children and I don't want to start doing the "well so and so got pregnant the first try and didn't have any issues...."But it's just so heartbreaking.... 

pennynjon

I am so sorry fot your loss.  You will be in my t&p.  ((hugs))

acadiababy

I have a similar story - just arrived here last night - these women have already been amazingly supportive, and even just reading through posts helps you feel like you're not alone. I'm sorry for this and understand what you're going through. 

WifeyWynn0626

I am so sorry for your loss. ((hugs))

LDW80

So sorry for your loss!  I was farther along but from about 6 weeks knew something wasn't right.  I have 2 DDs already and my symptoms were pretty similar with each.  With this one I spotted for almost 3 weeks and hardly got nauseous at all.  I got to hear the hb at ist appt. (9w) and then at this one (13w)...nothing.  It stopped growing at 11 weeks.  I have gone through the same things ALL day....what did I do wrong?!?  I know it wasn't my fault.  I was so strict on what I ate and what I drank (hardly any caffiene, never drank alcohol, etc).  It was just God's way of telling me that there was something wrong with this baby and that is wasn't meant to be.  I am glad I have this board for the support.  Take care of yourself and I hope you get pregnant right away and get that take home baby.

ambs21

I'm so sorry for your loss.  It is certainly heartbreaking.  FX that you get to use those gifts very soon and that 2011 is the year for lots of take home babies.  Hang in there.  T&P.

LanaLoves

Its horriable to say, but its nice to know that there are other people going through the same thing. I started to MC beginning of last week with my first as well.. I was 5weeks & 5 days too.....I am so devistated

When someone asks me how i feel, the word that comes to my mind is DEFLATED. I feel empty... I am so sad. I know that this is 'common' and that I will have healthy babies in the future...But it just is so hard, Ive had a knot in my throat all week.

I am so sorry for you too and I cant wait for you to be happy again and I am sure that will be soon...I wish that there is something that I can tell you to make you feel better but there isnt....The only comforting thing is knowing that there are a few of us going through the exact same thing at the exact same time...And Its kind of nice not feeling so alone xoxo

adunlevy

Thinking of you as well, I also just miscarried at 5wks 5days.