So it's been almost three weeks since the miscarriage and things have gotten a little better. There are still times I get upset.. like seeing women with new babies and things like that. But there is this commercial.. there is just something that makes me break into tears every time it comes on.. it's for State Farm, and it shows the new father holding the brand new baby.. and I just get so fricking angry... that should be my DH with our baby.. and I just can't stand it. It's just not fair. I sometimes think I have lost myself and I don't know who I'm supposed to be anymore...
Blah.. guess i just needed to vent.. sorry..
Me 38, DH 34
Missed M/C 10/08 at 10 weeks
DD born 8/09, TTC#2 since Jan 2011
In the first month after my m/c I would cry at commercials, seeing a baby on the street, a song on the radio . . .everything. Absolutely understandable. slowly things get easier, but we know how you are feeling!
m/c#1 07/16/08 (11 weeks), m/c#2 10/10/08 (8 weeks).
and then nothing since except every test possible (no answers).
IUI#1 and #2: BFNs
Super lucky to be buddies with Peetie.
Our out of nowhere, surprise DD born 5/29/2011
I hate that commercial too. I also hate the VW commercial about women getting pregnant so they can but a mini van. Pisses me off, like getting pg and having a baby is so easy everyone is doing it just to get a stupid mini van! ((Hugs)) to you.
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I agree that commercial is difficult for me right now too. I loved it before the m/c & always dreamed of that being my DH & baby in a few months... But now I just walk out of the room & do something else when it comes on.
I also feel lost... It's like I've lost my identity & am now questioning what I should be doing. I was laid off right before getting pg & felt okay about not rushing out to get a job again. We were moving across country & I was taking care of what seemed to be a delicate pregnancy as it was. I'm going to be a SAHM anyway so it was no big deal as I was only going to be able to work for a few more months anyway. Well now, I have no idea how much longer it's going to be. And while my supportive DH has absolutely no problem if I continue to stay at home, I just feel lost & confused about the whole thing & just figuring out who I am again.
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Re: Stupid Commercial...
Yeah, that commercial made me cry ((((Hugs))))
APS, hetero factor v leiden & MTHFR
bfp #1 - 12.11.07, edd 8.14.08, mm/c 1.21.08 (10w4d)
bfp #2 - 4.4.08, edd 12.3.08, mm/c 5.14.08 (11w)
bfp #3 - 8.3.08, edd 4.15.09, mm/c 9.17.08 (10w)
bfp #4 - 1.15.09, edd 9.26.09, mm/c 2.16.09 (8w2d)
bfp #5 - 6.16.09, edd 2.25.10, mm/c 7.23.09 (9w)
bfp #6 - 8.12.10, edd 4.27.11, mm/c 9.16.10 (8w1d)
one more try -> bfp #7 - 2.11, our miracle baby boy arrived 10.11
ttc again -> bfp #8 - 5.3.13, edd 1.13.14, mm/c 5.30.13 (7w3d)
I agree that commercial is difficult for me right now too. I loved it before the m/c & always dreamed of that being my DH & baby in a few months... But now I just walk out of the room & do something else when it comes on.
I also feel lost... It's like I've lost my identity & am now questioning what I should be doing. I was laid off right before getting pg & felt okay about not rushing out to get a job again. We were moving across country & I was taking care of what seemed to be a delicate pregnancy as it was. I'm going to be a SAHM anyway so it was no big deal as I was only going to be able to work for a few more months anyway. Well now, I have no idea how much longer it's going to be. And while my supportive DH has absolutely no problem if I continue to stay at home, I just feel lost & confused about the whole thing & just figuring out who I am again.