All morning I've just wanted to cry. I keep tearing up and I feel that familiar lump in my throat and I don't know why. I mean, I know why, but why now??? Nothing has happened this morning to make today any worse than any other day.
Does anyone else feel like their emotions are completely out of whack and make no sense?
I went to my friend's baby shower yesterday and felt ok. I went to FIL's birthday party and felt pretty good despite the comments that my SIL (who doesn't know I was pregnant let alone that I miscarried) made along the lines of "hmmm, maybe you're pregnant." Then after being home for a few hours I just lost it. Burst into tears and sobbed uncontrollably. I don't understand. I should've sobbed during the shower or when SIL suggested I was pregnant, but I didn't. And it wasn't like I was holding it back. I really thought I felt ok.