I am 8 months pregnant, single and so sad. I was with my mom, dad, sister and her husband for the last 5 days and it killed me. I was so bitter and so angry with everyone that I couldn't enjoy the holidays. I am so lonely and so sad that J has been so un-involved with my pregnancy.
I just recently moved and my parents brought all my things out of storage (b/c J wouldn't ever commit to driving to their house 8 hours away to get it all out of storage) on Tuesday night and J met us over here to help unload. We didn't speak at all as he was unloading stuff. My parents left and J walked me to my car. I was (trying) to be very strong and hold in any sort of emotion I had. He gave me a very long hug and kissed me on the cheek and said he wanted to help come over next week to help put things together and set up. I just agreed and got in my car and left.
I got a text from him on Christmas eve that said Merry Christmas to my family and our soon to be. I wanted to throw the phone across the room. He's so involved one day and then absent the next. I never know what to expect.
I just got home today and I am sitting in my apt...crying. I have so much to do and all I can think about is how I'm single and alone and 8 months pregnant while he's out doing gosh knows what.
I've been getting caught up on here and just crying at some of the stories of how hard it is once LO is here and you're alone. I don't know wha'ts harder...not knowing if I'll have my little girl with me next Christmas or knowing I'll have her and be alone.