Single Parents
That was one lonely xmas
It was great fun with DS and things were fun in general, but I was so painfully aware of my singleness around my siblings and their perfect spouses and kids, and my happily married parents. I actually missed STBXH a lot, then would remember how he is spending xmas (with the homewrecker, apparently having too much fun to call his son to say "Merry Christmas"), and then I would sneak off to the bathroom to cry. I'm glad I'm getting more and more ready to date, because I don't want to be lonely like that next year, and I won't even have DS.
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Re: That was one lonely xmas
I only have one sibling who is happily married - she is actually at the point in her pregnancy where XH left me.
And, I miss the nice gifts I used to get from my XH when he cared, and I'm sad that I don't have anybody to set up the santa presents with.
I think I'd love to date, but I just don't feel like I have any room at all in my schedule or life in general to compromise, and I don't know when that will change.
My ex starts getting overnights in February. That is going to be very, very hard for me because I pretty much never want to be away from my son. My goal is to be ready for dating around then, after over a year of being single at that point. I hope to have something fun to look forward to those nights. If it's not a date, then it can be a girls' night out.
STBXH is very charismatic and pretty hyterical. He's been a part of my family's xmas for the past seven years. Nobody talked about it, but I couldn't have been the only one who was noticing the void left by him not being there. It seemed so wrong. I need to stop being so sentimental, but these holidays are tough.
I'm glad it's over too. Now to get through New Year's...