Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss

Enough with the Baby's 1st xmas ornaments, please!

I've been trying my best to not break down during this holiday season and make life as normal as possible but everytime I go out to do a little shopping I am ambushed with baby's 1st christmas ornaments, sigh, makes it so hard to not think about our little girl and how she isn't here to celebrate her 1st christmas.  I did however pick out a pretty gold butterfly ornament for her though :) 

Hope all of you mamas are hanging in there with the holidays. ((hugs))

?DD 9/17/10 22wks I carry you in my heart.?
bfp#2 2/14/11? cerclage placed at 13 weeks
?DS 9/29/11 36 wks 3 days 8lb 20 1/4" ?
bfp#3 12/15/12 CP 12/27/12
bfp#4 2/25/13
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Re: Enough with the Baby's 1st xmas ornaments, please!

  • i completely understand where you are at...it is so difficult right now!  but you are being strong, especially by picking out an ornament just for her!

    today was the first time DH and I went to a mall to finish our christmas shopping, and i didn't have a breakdown and have to leave over something i saw or heard...baby steps i keep reminding myself, baby steps.

    {{hugs}} this has to get better--never the same as it was--but as my dear  grandmother asked me last week "so, do you feel stronger yet?  things like this are supposed to make you stronger". sigh..... 

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    Our Rango....BFP 2/6/11...hb on 2/23...perfectly healthy, but no hb on 6/9/11 d & e 6/15/2011
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  • I put our "1st Christmas as Parents-to-be" ornament away. I couldn't look at it on the tree anymore. 

     Bah Humbug. 

    After two losses, a rainbow arrived! DD born 11.5.11
    Dx with severe Asherman's syndrome after a botched PP D&C (pursuing med mal)
    Hysteroscopy Oct '13, not enough progress 
    Hysteroscopy Jan '14, given an end-of-the-road diagnosis
    Joined International Asherman's Association April '14 
    Not ready to give up yet.
    Hysteroscopy with Dr. Isaacson (an expert in the USA) 6.2.14: Good prognosis, at least 50% of cavity open.
    Repeat hysteroscopy scheduled with Dr. I on 6.16.14. Great progress. Unbenched!!!!
    Discussing actively TTC with DH after the heartache of the last year. We're both reeling.
     
    Please, please, please. 
  • I totally get it.  I burst into tears at Kohls about a month ago when I saw the first one this year.
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  • We actually bought a Baby's 1st Christmas ornament for our girl. It's a little strange, but we found a perfect one at Hallmark. It's a Precious Moments and it's a baby sleeping on the moon. So sweet. They also have a clam with a pearl and an in memory statement on it. We bought that too. It's hard now but I want to have an ornament on the tree in the future that marks the year we had her. These two ornaments are the only ones on our tree this year.
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