Today sucks

jenn0021

I feel like crap today. Why is it that as soon as I feel like things might be getting better and I'm having a more positive outlook on life and I have a bunch of good days in a row... then I have a really bad day. Or a bad couple of days. Today I am depressed and all I can think about is how I should have been 6 months pregnant. It also doesn't help that my SIL is due in 2 weeks and she keeps updating facebook with how she's feeling. I just hate pregnant people right now. And then I feel guilty for hating them because I know I shouldn't. And deep down inside, I dont' hate them, I'm just jealous of them. This sucks. I'm also sad because come January we are allowed to start trying again. So on my normal days I'm excited and can't wait but then on days like today I get freaked out that I will have another miscarriage and that something will go wrong and I don't want to have to go through that again. I just want to go back in time to when I was blissfully ignorant of the real world. Boo to Friday.

dana1318a

I'm so sorry Jenn Maybe you can block your SILs status updates for now?

hmclaughlin10

I am sorry you are having a rough day. I hate how horrible people can make us feel just by posting stuff about pregnancy--I have so much jealousy towards people that are happily pregnant with no complications. I hope your day gets a tad bit better..Just think..only a couple more weeks & you can start trying again and all your bad days will turn right back around. Keep your head held high!

Heidikins27

Hello Jenn. I'm sorry you're going through this. I can relate to what you're saying. So many pregnant women on Facebook! I have had to block their status updates for a while.