Still dwelling over birth experience..

marbear81

7 months later and I still re-live all the disappointments I am trying to get the courage to ask my OB some questions.. I probably won't like the answers but I do think it will help me get closure For those that had a c-section: did anyone else not get a glimpse of their babies the day they were born? For the record, I had 34 weekers who eventually required 19 days of NICU time.. Also, after both babies were delivered, I was given medication in my IV that made me sleepy.. I remember fading in and out.. Is this normal??? All the c-sections I've seen on TV/heard about, mom gets an epidural but is otherwise awake.. I lost 1,000 cc of blood but never required a transfusion.. Not sure if that has something to do with it or not...

marbear81

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benkari

I was awake during my c-section and they brought each baby (32 wkers) over to kiss me before taking them to the NICU and I was allowed to go see them a few hours after I finished in the delivery room as soon as I was able to move myself from one bed to the other with help. 

LALASEPT05

I'm sorry that the experience is still troubling for you. And that is tough that you didn't get to see your babies right after - I am very surprised they didn't at least show you the babies. I had HELLP and so I was pumped full of mag and I was very groggy and scared and I did lose a lot of blood as well. I do remember being very out of it and I remember just fighting to stay with it enough to see the babies. They showed me Logan and he cried and they did not show us Amelia and she was quiet and I was scared and I asked my husband if she was ok. We got confirmation that she was ok and honestly that is the last thing I remember until being back in my room. I was upset that they didn't show us her as well. That said the babies did come back to our room with us and didn't have to go to NICU so I think that makes a big difference. Also not that the birth experience wasn't important to me, but it really wasn't. I just wanted us all three to come out of it ok and I didn't really mind how we got there. But I know for a lot of women that part is very important and so I understand being upset. The mag really messes you up and if that is medication you had I totally understand that you feel terrible after the c-section for many days. I remember being in the hospital and not having good motor skills enough to hold them and being so sore and weak that I couldn't care for them at all. That was a horrible feeling.

LakeGenevaBride

I thought I was the only one....   5+ months later and I still think about my birth experience.  I had a vaginal birth.  I was real nauseous and I literally puked baby A out.  I don't even really remember delivering Baby B.   Right afterwards I started to hemorrhage.  My DH said all the sudden there were a dozen people standing around me resuscitating me.  I required 4 blood transfusions.  I didn't get to see babies till next day.  And even then I couldn't get out of bed for 2 days.  I was so weak I could barely hold them.  I keep trying to piece together what happened that day.  What was supposed to be the happiest day of my life was awful .  I'm thankful that the babies were in perfect health, but I have never felt so terrible in my life.  I remember feeling like I was going to die.  I blame the experience on my post partum depression/anxiety and my breastfeeding failure.  I think I have post traumatic stress disorder.

sunnybrook.

I'm very disappointed that my didn't hold the babies up for me during my c-section. They were born at 36w6d and came out screaming. They brought Baby A to me in the OR after they got her vitals and wrapped her in a blanket. While they were cleaning Baby B, she started grunting and they took her to triage. I didn't get to see her for 4 hours even though she was stable. They kept telling me they'd bring her to me after her bath. I'm sad that we don't have a picture of her with me or DH in the OR. Her first picture is of me and both babies and I feel she was robbed of that individual shot.

I was awake for hours after my c-section. I would definitely ask your OB what happened. Its not the norm, but there may have been something medically happening that required it. I hope you find peace with what happened soon.

Haven1

What exactly do you want to ask her?  1000cc of blood is quite a bit, and in situations like that, an OB's priority is you.  They've handed the babies off to the NICU staff, and while that picture perfect family moment is ideal, sometimes the health and safety of the mother takes priority.

I also had a c/s at 34w with 13 days in the NICU.  I don't remember seeing my babies before they were taken off.  (Although there's pictures, so I know it happened briefly.)  Five hours later I was offered to go down and see them.  Unfortunately, I threw up twice and had to stabilize.  Once I finally got down there to see them, I threw up within 5 minutes and got kicked out of the NICU.  So while it was offered to see my babies on the first day, it wasn't what I'd pictured at all either.  And honestly, I don't remember any of it happening. 

I know we all had the Baby Story picture up in our heads where they lay the baby on our chests and everyone cries.  Especially those of us who may only be pregnant once now that they got 2 for 1.  I certainly didn't anticipate going to a routine NST alone and being told one baby stopped growing and we were going to deliver the next morning to decrease the chances of still birth.  I never thought the first time I'd see my babies was in a box where I had to stick my hand through a hole to touch them.  And while I knew it was a possibility, walking out the hospital door without them was the hardest thing I've ever done.

I'd certainly talk to your OB, but I'd really work toward moving past it.  It happened, it wasn't what you wanted, but it's over and done.  Life has and will have a million more memorable moments to saver.  Try not to dwell on the ones you can't change.  Your babies need the happiest you there is.

SoldiersGreenBean

I was given the same (or similar med) after they removed the babies during the c-section.  It's called Versed, and it's a sedation/calming med.  It's totally normal to feel sleepy and fade in and out.  I didn't really wake up until about an hour after the babies were born and I was back in my room.  I vaguely remember having to give myself a hug so they could move me to the bed, but that was it.  I like to consider it the best sleep I've had in a long time!

kaitley44

The first glance I had of my babies was after they were wrapped up and only for about 2 seconds before my DH and my babies were taken out of the OR. There was a problem with my spinal block and I was in an insane amount of pain and was crying. I could hardly even look at my babies I was in so much pain.

I was also given a medication after the babies were delivered that knocked me out. I remember waking up in the recovery room alone. I was really anxious by myself and asked that my DH and babies be brought to me, which they did.

I was ok with most of my experience. The only thing that I did not like was how little they were supporting my BF desires. I was told by many nurses and the hospital pediatricians that I wouldn't be able to exclusively BF because they have never seen a mom of twins do it, and that I should just formula feed or at least supplement. When I refused they threatened not to release the babies unless I agreed to suppliment. I did supplement until my milk came in and then stopped. I only had one nurse who was supporting me n BF. I almost gave up on BF many times in the beginning because I kept second guessing myself. I kept thinking that maybe they were right.

My babies are 6 months old and I still get annoyed when I think about the support I recieved in the hospital. I have EBF since I left the hospital.

I am sorry you didn't have a good experience. I hope you get the answers you are looking for.