sigh... I didn't realize that being on clomid put so much pressure (on me) on this working for us right now.... Because we are taking it I feel like we have to get it all right and do everything we can to get that freaking BFP.... I want a sticky baby... I just didnt know it was going to feel so stressful... I feel like I am putting pressure on DH by saying oh by the way tonight we have to BD...
I was angry when I went to bed and then teary when DH came to bed... Thank God for him because he was willing to talk it all out with me and tell me it was all going to work no matter what and that I just had to relax and realize he wanted this baby too and he would do what needed done and it would all be ok...
I just don't get why this can't be easy... women have been birthing babies for ages why is it so hard for all of us????
Re: cried before FWP last night
I'm so sorry
I am scared of this too. I'm afraid that from now on it will always be in the back of our minds, that this act led to us losing a baby. I'm sure we all wish that we could go back to the time when we had no idea what FWP or BD even meant. I wish I could be naive again...
Sigh. Hang in there.
BFP#1 5.27.10 DS became an angel at 21 weeks on 9.22.10
BFP#2 4.16.11 Healthy baby girl born 12.14.11
BFP#3 9.3.12 A healthy, bouncing baby SISTER on the way! EDD 5.12.13
I'm sorry ((((hugs))))
I feel the same way - I start my first round of Clomid as soon as AF shows (hopefully any day now) and I am so anxious about it, feeling like I need to prepare myself now so that we can do everything possible and right this cycle. It's a lot of pressure and I hate that *sigh*
Best of luck to all of us!
BFP 1: 3/19/10 Loss: 7/9/10
BFP 2: 12/28/10
My Blog: Losing Sylvia
I know exactly what you mean, ttcal is just so much pressure, its hard to believe that there was ever a time when it didn't seem difficult and its so unfair that some people have it easy and some have to go through so much to have a baby. I'm so glad your DH is so supportive. The only positive spin I can find in any of this is that after all the sh!t we've all been through just trying to get pg (and stay that way), that as a couple we'll be much more prepared emotionally to handle the ups and downs of being a new parent. I'm trying to keep that in mind but it seems like a shot in the dark, I keep looking for the light at the end of the tunnel but some days it just feels neverending. *hugs*
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