I cant even believe this happened to me and I will never forgive myself. I lost Kai this evening TOT. I turned my head for just a moment when going to the door of my mothers house and when I looked back there was only one child.
Eli was ready to ring the doorbell and Kai was gone. My mom came to the door and I asked her if Kai was inside already and she said no. with in seconds my family was looking for him everywhere outside. My mom lives in a quldesac (sp?) in the back so there want a ton of places he could have went, but he wasn't in any of them.
At this point I was absolutely hysterical and screaming like a crazy woman. This got all the neighbors out of their houses and they all started to look for him too. My mom was running around looking for Kai and calling the police at the same time. strangers TOT ing with their kids started looking for him. I was running and screaming looking in people backyards, I am soaked cause I jumped into my parents pond, the neighbors pond I looked everywhere. All I can remember now is that it was so dark outside and how I needed lights.
what felt like eternity (was realistically anywhere from 5-10 minutes) and I wanted to die. I lost my child. I was going to be one of those parents who will never know what happened to their baby. or worse when daylight came we would find him and he would be gone and it was all my fault. Kai then casually walked around the corner of the neighbors house and said hi mommy and laughed and gave me a hug.
You guys I am still just completely shaken. my throat hurts from screaming and I lost the entire contents of the last two days worth of food in the neighbors front yard. I cant believe this all happened and I feel like a complete and under failure as a parent. what kind of parent loses their 2 year old in the dark.
I will never be able to thank all the neighbors and strangers and parents and teenagers who all took the time to help search. everyone was calling his name and it was like time stopped and TOTing was forgotten while everyone looked for Kai.
I called Brian, remember he left for 3 weeks this morning, and just completely broke down telling him what happened.He was so kind and said all the right things I needed to hear but he will never understand the fear I was in and the helplessness that I felt.
anyway thank you for letting me ramble, I don't think I will be myself again for days. and everyone hug your kids extra tight tonight cause it literally only took a second and I almost lost one.
Dawn - Wife of Brian 09/25/2005 - Mother of Eli Jace 03/12/2007 and Kai Evan 10/17/08