I know I don't post a lot but I just had to reach out to some people who would understand. Today I am 9w1d pregnant, which is the day on my last pregnancy we went to my OB and learned the heart had stopped beating (the fetus measured 9w1d and we had seen a strong heartbeat the previous week).
I am feeling so uneasy today. I know every pregnancy is different, but I am so haunted. We go for our first OB appointment Tuesday (we've been with an RE before this) and it cannot come quickly enough. Thanks for listening.
Re: Previous loss day = Rough day
It's a total b!tch to wait!
I lost my son at 16w5d (April of this year) and I was a total freaking wreck up until my last appointment (last Tuesday) and then caught a stomach virus this weekend and have been freaking out about how the baby is doing now...too much grumbly in my tummy to feel the baby.
On one hand, it does get easier, on the other hand, it never does. PRAYERS for a great appointment on Tuesday and a STICKY BABY!!!
BFP #1 March 24, 2010; missed m/c May 26, 2010 @ 12w 4d; D&E May 28, 2010
BFP #2 Oct 20, 2010; My little boy was born on July 5, 2011
BFP #3 April 30, 2013; Chemical Pg May 5, 2013
BFP #4 Aug 22, 2013; It's a boy. Loss discovered at 24 weeks on Jan 15, 2014 (cause CMV virus)
We love and miss you Timothy
BFP #5 April 6, 2014; missed m/c May 15, 2014 @ 9 weeks; Misoprostol May 15, 2014; D&C May June 3, 2014
I understand completely! I let out a huge sigh of relief when I passed where I was with my m/c, but I still don't feel out of the woods. I think it's something that changes you and makes you always feel extra cautious/paranoid. Someone on one of these boards wrote something that can be like a mantra though:
"Today I am pregnant and I love my baby."
Just take it day by day I guess. Right now you are pregnant and everything is perfect.