... but this is HARD!
I guess I kinda knew it would be, but man oh man! One baby would have been hard, two is just an everyday battle. The sleepless nights/days, the every 2-3hr feedings, the constant spit-ups, the screaming fits at all hours and pooplosions that come out of the diapers and onto the swing/comforter/crib mattress, etc.
I have to be thankful though, because Nicholas has been such a charm these past few days. He's truly SUCH a GREAT kid. He's not giving me any trouble, no jealousy type of attitute, nada. He even tries to *help* in his little way....and I find him constantly looking for his little bros when he hears them crying.
There have been many nights where (i'm not kidding) my DH has found me sitting on the couch crying hysterically thinking "How are we going to do this?" I think he thinks i've gone completely insane ... who knows maybe I have? and I tend to wonder, would I be feeling differently if this 2nd pregnancy had been planned?
I am just begging for some sleep right now, a clean house and some adult interaction .... and as much as I hate to admit this, can we please FF to a few months from now?
No need to respond, I guess I just needed to get this off my chest and write it down so I can let go of these awful feelings i'm having right now...