Thankful... but scared

wolfchik9

I'm so glad to finally be back on a Birth Month board. I had a m/c in January of this year and it's been a long year just hoping and wishing but I'm finally here! It is such a struggle to get through each workday even though I work by myself in my own baby clothing store. Sometimes when it's slow I just sit here and try not to fall asleep! I am feeling horrible and hope this doesn't last for weeks like it might. I'm being really cautious about who we tell this time since I had the m/c after we told our families, friends, and co-workers. It was great to have their support but it really sucked having to tell them all. Of course, here I am so early in my pregnancy, I find myself second guessing every cramp, every bit of dampness I think I might feel, every little thing that could indicate a problem. I check periodically throughout the day to make sure there's no blood, no bad cramping, no bad stuff. It's going to be a long pregnancy if I keep thinking this way but I don't know how else to act. The fear that I could go through that again is just too big. I hope everyone else is having a healthy pregnancy and I hope to continue to post HAPPY stuff from now on. Good luck!

MrsDink

So sorry for your loss.  Good thoughts for a H&H 9 mos!!

sweetmelissa0901

I currently have a high risk pregnancy so I know exactly how you are feeling.  I worry 24/7.  I wake up at night to see if I'm spotting.  Being a mommy is hard!  Talk to  your doctor about your concerns and feelings.   Mine knows that I'm really worried so he does bloodwork every few days to ease my mind and has also let me have 2 u/s (I'm 7w5d today). 

babyhunbun7

Happy and healthy nine months to you!  Glad you are back, sorry for your loss.

wolfchik9

Thanks, everyone! I'm really glad to be back! So far, so good. Unfortunately I don't see my dr. till 10/21 so I'll be going crazy for the next two weeks. Everything seems to be going well, feeling like crap, m/s comes and goes as it pleases (thank god for Zofran). My DH has been wonderful. He's a nurse so he works long hours but is always very attentive and has been really good about cooking for me then for himself, buying what I am craving, and just letting me rest. I find myself tearing up and EVERYTHING lately and he just ignores it (thankfully). I really appreciate all the support here!!! I wish everyone a successful, happy, healthy, and love-filled 9 months!