PPD or just a difficult adjustment to preemie #2?

Denesdia

I was diagnosed with Postpartum Depression after my DD was born.  I attributed it to the stress of her birth, the NICU, as well as my hormonal changes.  Over time, I weaned myself off the meds and felt like myself within a few months.  So, I am really struggling since DS's arrival 9 weeks ago.  I can't tell if it is the normal adjusting to two under two, going back to work, etc., or if I need to see my OB to get back on meds, again.  I haven't felt "normal" since March of this year.  I had 14 weeks of bedrest, 8 weeks of maternity leave where I was alone with both babies due to my DH being in school, and now I am back to work full-time.  One part of me wants to just say that I need to allow myself the transition period, and then the other part is saying that I am the devil to live with for my poor DH.  Any ideas appreciated.

mackislandbride

Well, I think you need to cut yourself some slack, it's not easy have 2 under 2 and especially after having yet another NICU experience.  I know it's easier said than done, but I would try to find one thing that you really loved doing before you had kids and take an hour a week, leave the kids w/DH and spend that hour on yourself.  Even if it's just to lock yourself in the bathroom to read a book   IF you think that DH would coming knocking, then I would get in the car and go to the mall or a park or something, just to get some alone time.  You deserve it!

lemen99

Hm I'm not sure, but I would talk to your ob and your husband about it.  The NICU is very stressful.  Even if it's just an adjustment for you due to NICU time more than PPD, it still doesn't hurt to talk to your doctor.  I hope you feel like your normal happy self soon!